Up Here In My Tree

Dreams Do Come True When You're Me!

2011-07-11T22:03:00.007-04:00

There we were, me, Michelle, Ryan, Joe, and Jen, walking up the road that lead to the greatest concert of my life that I posted about here in April. I already was expecting the best night ever, but little did I know that things could get even better. As avid Pearl Jam fans, we got there plenty early and it paid off more than we could know. As we were walking and talking, a woman came down the road shouting, "Does anyone have a single ticket?!". I heard her, but was in mid-conversation with Michelle. Luckily, her cousin Ryan responded and said, "She does!" while pointing at me. Before I even turned to look at the stranger, she had grabbed my hand and told me to come with her. She literally began running up this hill. I said, "Ok! Where are we going?". We didn't get very far before she stopped in front of a big man wearing all black and a mic attached to his shirt. Next to me a woman was saying that this is Eddie Vedder's bodyguard and he's upgrading tickets. I did what I thought was needed and told the man I had a single ticket. He said that he needed two tickets in order to trade. The woman who had grabbed me chimed in immediately and said, "We're together!", so I followed her lead and said, "Oh, yes, we are together!" He asked for us to hand over our purchased tickets and in exchange handed us two FRONT ROW tickets to the concert. I was somewhat skeptical at first, thinking, is this a scam? Another fan that was next to me must've seen my skeptical face, because she confirmed it was real, telling me that the same thing happened to her last night in LA and to enjoy great seats. I looked down at the ticket in my hand and saw "Row 1" and looked up in shock at the stranger who I had to thank for this, asking, "Is this for real?!" I literally had chills. Me and Michelle, so happy!

She said, "Yes! We just got front row tickets to see Eddie Vedder! I know I don't know you but, thank you for letting me grab you!" I thanked her in return for doing so. She introduced herself as Sara and a friendship of a lifetime was formed. The friends I came with had followed me and also traded in their tickets for front row. We were all stunned and so happy and couldn't believe out luck. We all were anxious to check out our seats, and mine was dead center stage. I couldn't have been more front row and center.

The stage. And notice how the front row has a cluster of people already seated? Yeah, we were a little excited to already sit down, I'd say.My shadow is on the right. I sat down in disbelief and pure joy. And there was so much more to come.

Glen Hansard, my second (very close second) favorite musician opened for Eddie. I've seen this man perform multiple times and know all his Swell Season songs. He only played six songs total, but they were perfect. I sang along to the ones I knew (he did some covers I did not know the words to). He looked at me and smiled several times and it made my day. I was THAT close! Close enough to make eye contact and know it. Ha.

Moving on to the main man of the hour. Eddie came out and played the first three tracks of his new "Ukulele Songs" album in order, which I promptly and gladly sang along to, but was careful not to sing too loud to not annoy my neighbors (I'm a considerate fellow fan). Upon finishing the third song titled "Without You" Eddie got up from his stool and walked toward the front of the stage. I don't recall what it was that prompted me to get out of my seat and walk towards him. It's all sort of a blur. Maybe it was the simple fact that he had something in his hand and was obviously moving forward to give it away. So, I stood up and moved toward him (seriously felt like an out-of-body experience), and others on the front row followed my lead. By now Eddie was at the edge of the stage and reached out. I started to raise my hand towards his, and I could see out of my peripheral vision that other hands were rising up to meet his. What he did next is embedded in my mind forever. He distinctly, but slightly, seemed to shake his head at others' hands higher than mine and motioned/pointed his hand at me, non-vocally saying, "This is for her". In a state of pure denial, I reached up at his hand and he passed his guitar pick into mine. He turned to walk back to his stool and I returned to my seat, savoring the moment when I actually touched Eddie Vedder!

My new friend Sara added to the experience as she turned to me and said, "Oh my God! That was so for YOU!! How awesome!" I think she even congratulated me, and then repeated, "That was so for you!" I loved her even more in that moment. I think I said something in response, but can't recall what it was, I was just stunned. Michelle came over to hug me after the sweet exchange and I got a fist bump from Joe for it. It made me feel even happier that everyone around me was stoked for me. For the next few songs, I held that pick tightly in my hand. Eddie played for two hours and Glen joined him on a few songs, namely, "Sleepless Nights" and "Falling Slowly". I couldn't believe what I was witnessing. The two of them, on stage together, singing...my mind was about to explode.

At the very end of the show, the security guard walked by the front row, motioning everyone to get up and come up to the stage. He went by so quickly, though, and no one was watching him because we were watching Eddie. But as he passed me I saw him continuing to motion us up, so me and a few others began to move forward and the rest of the row followed. We got to be up against the stage for the last song or two. His second to last song was "Hard Sun" from the movie soundtrack "Into the Wild", and the stage background became this blue sky full of white clouds. At that moment, I literally felt like I was in heaven. Eddie got the signal from the stage crew that he could play one more song, and he chose "Dream a Little Dream", which again, solidified my heaven-like state of mind.

The whole thing, from start to finish, felt like a dream. But it was very real and I have a guitar pick to prove it. And 3,999 witnesses.

Back story: If you're reading this, thinking, "This girl is a little obsessed," know that Pearl Jam is the band I've always considered the first real band I ever liked as a pre-teen/teen (post my childhood Amy Grant and NKOTB phase), and I have stayed an avid fan all these years. My answer to the question, "Who is your all-time favorite band" has been and always will be PEARL JAM.

Hiatus

2011-07-01T12:31:00.000-04:00

I'm back!!!

I took the month of June off from posting because, frankly, June was extremely uneventful. I did move back to Las Vegas after being gone for five years, which is pretty huge. This is the photo I had to capture after getting off the plane:

Home, sweet home. But besides that, I got nothin' to share about June.

Wait!

I'm so wrong! I met all of my babies!!! Well, both of my beautiful baby boy nephews and Meleah's sweet baby girl. I have plenty of photos of them, but I'll just share a few:

Behold! Forrest and Lucas!!

And, sweet baby girl Genevieve

I love them all so much!!! It's so much fun being around all these babies, but it's also sure making me want one. I need to get on that...eventually.

I'm currently in LA with my parents. We saw Les Miserables last night. It was so good! We all love the story and characters and music. Beautiful. My parents head back today, but I get to stay the holiday weekend! I'm so excited. I'm staying with my friend Kristen in Orange County and we're gonna go to parties and the beach and have girl talk! Yay!

Back to the Beach

2011-06-01T02:30:00.000-04:00

I haven't been posting lately for good reason. I've been here

the last six days. Yes, a week in a beach-front house. In North Carolina, to be exact. I've met a lot of cool people that have stayed here, too, and all we pretty much have done is hang out in our swimsuits all day and party at the beach or pool. I actually boogie-boarded today! First time in years, and it was so fun! The water temperature was so comfortable and the waves were perfect.

More on the week later.

That's It

2011-05-27T12:07:00.000-04:00

I can't complain about my last few days in New York. I took it easy and mostly just ate out with friends and relaxed. I snapped a few random last shots as I said goodbye:

I just became the owner of a new weekender bag with a giraffe print like this woman's purse. Oh, and that was my last subway ride.

Last view of my school.

I have the answer to this question.

NYPD, hard at work.

Random, weird band, also hard at work.

Sweet little Ava (aka: Spider(wo)man).

Last meal at Cafe Lalo (famous from "You've Got Mail").

Last glimpse of CP, in the cab on the way to the airport.

It's been a good ride, New York. Until we meet again!

One More Late Night

2011-05-25T20:12:00.003-04:00

I went to see a live taping of "Late Night with Jimmy Fallon" yesterday.

While I was there I realized it was one year ago this month the last time I went to that show when Meleah and Chance were visiting. I should make it a yearly tradition, because, after all, the month of May is one of the best times to come here, and I love being a visitor in New York City, I've decided.

I'm in pure bliss when I act as if I'm a tourist and not a resident. But that has not been my reality, hence, my "relatively neutral" feelings about NYC. Abby shared with me the existence of a book titled, "I Feel Relatively Neutral About New York" and here's the awesome cover:
She said it reminded her of me. Ha. I just may have to buy it. But again, my neutrality only applies, I think, to when I live here. I'll be back to visit and will love it again like I once did. I choose to come to school out here, after all! There was a reason behind that choice.

Eat, Shop, Shop, Eat

2011-05-24T23:25:00.004-04:00

Last week was so much fun! I got to spend a few days with both my parents, and we went to a few food markets, because I knew my dad would enjoy them. My mom and I enjoyed them, too, but lets face it--I wanted to make sure he enjoyed himself somewhat the little time he was here. And knowing he would not care to do anything touristy or "New York", food markets it was. Then after my dad left it was just me and my mom for three days! We basically planned out our days according to where we were going to eat that day. We had a list and made sure we crossed them all off! We stopped in between to do a little shopping and sight-seeing, too. But yeah, mostly it was a food tour of NYC.
Wall-to-wall green in Central Park!
This spot was so beautiful. I had never been to this part of the park before. Glad I got to discover it before leaving.
The good ol' Jackie O. reservoir. One of my favorite views in all the city.
My last slice of New York pizza!!!! We did much, much more than these few photos show and had so much fun! I was reminded that I love being a tourist in the city and not a resident. Boy, I'm going to love coming back here to visit!

Graduation Day

2011-05-23T23:03:00.000-04:00

These days I'm too preoccupied with the fact that I am soon leaving this city, so I haven't been on the computer much at all. But here are some photos from graduation!!Me and my classmate Germika (aka Superwoman!). I met her in the very beginning of the program at orientation. Same story with Jae, too. They are two of the few friends I made in school, yet, we never had classes together.

The rain stayed back while at Yankee Stadium. And Bill Clinton did a fine job on his speech (even my dad said so!).
My parents and I went straight from Yankee to my social work school ceremony at Avery Fisher Hall. It was just in time, too, because the rain started to fall.My mom has a few better pictures of this day, but I don't have access to them. It was a long, but great day and I'm so happy my parents were there to share it with me!!

Mom in NYC

2011-05-21T15:40:00.002-04:00

My mom and Me at the end of our last day together in the city:

We've had a wonderful time these last few days, post graduation day. Once she is gone, and I have no one to hang out with anymore, I'll post more about what we've done.

Rain, Rain, Go Away

2011-05-17T17:44:00.001-04:00

This is what the forecast shows for the week:

Insane. What are the odds that the one week my parents are here for my graduation it's supposed to rain EVERY SINGLE DAY. But so far, it hasn't been as bad as it sounds. Just an overcast, drizzle-type day. Let's hope tomorrow is the same. It's the big day!!! Now, it'd be nice if my professors would just post my grades already! Sheesh.

Yankees!

2011-05-16T16:54:00.001-04:00

I got a sneak peek last week where my graduation is going to take place. Yankee Stadium!!!

I got so excited walking up and seeing the field. It was a church activity and was a lot of fun just to hang out.

Below is me and my roommate:

We sat in the bleachers and for the cheap seats, they weren't half bad. I splurged and got an ice cream that came in a cool souvenir cup!

It was freezing outside, but a really cute, nice guy let me wear his jacket. He also shared sunflower seeds and peanuts with me. I'm starting to care again about guys and dating. I really haven't since I've been in school. I'm waiting till I get home to do that, though. We shall see.

It's Real

2011-05-11T18:42:00.000-04:00

Ticket in hand:

It's official...I'm in! You can't get THIS far, right, without having passed?! I've already checked for final grades twice, but they're not posted, yet. I wasn't worried about passing class, really...but just the reality of it all hasn't sunk in just yet, that I am done, never to return to academia again. It was a surreal moment, sitting in my last class, trying to soak it in and appreciate it. I actually finished grad school in the same exact classroom where I began, two years ago. I'm probably the only one in the world that would notice such a thing, or even care about it. But I thought it was pretty cool. It shows you how sentimental and observant I am.

Yesterday I got my hair cut at a salon that specializes in curly hair, and my hair feels great! It pretty much looks the same, cause it always does. Afterward, I picked up my graduation cap and gown rental for the big day, one week from today. Here's a sneak peek!

Now I just need everyone I know to pray for good weather for next week. It says it's supposed to rain every day! Oh boy.

Catchin' Up

2011-05-09T21:47:00.006-04:00

Withing the last week or two I've been able to see and spend time with good ol' friends that have made their way to NYC for various reasons. First, Emily! She just graduated, too! We met up several times and ate and shopped and it was fun!
Following her visit, I got to see one of my friends, Alliy, who was a mission companion of mine. She stayed with me, which allowed for us to really catch up. Below we're at her booth at the trade show she was here for.
This was Friday, or better known as "the day of freedom," and I celebrated well, as you can see below. One of only a small handful of 7-Elevens in the New York City area, and I'm glad I came across it that day. Hits the spot! On Saturday I took a spontaneous trip down to Coney Island with another friend I needed to catch up with (though I failed to get her picture). I doubt I would've made my way there before I move away, so I'm glad I went. The pictures speak for themselves:
And the weekend ended (or the week began) with a lovely birthday party gathering in Sheep's Meadow in Central Park.I took my time getting out of there on the way home, and it was so peaceful.I saw ducks and turtles and flowers and lakes and bridges...I even saw a Red Cardinal! It was wonderful.

My Mother

2011-05-08T23:42:00.007-04:00

Where to begin...My mother is my best friend. She is my support, my constant. She is patient with me when I call her and do nothing but complain. She never gets angry at me when I cut her off in conversation so that I can speak what's on my mind, rather than listen to what's on hers. My mother is so giving, she is willing, and always has been, to send me anything and everything I've needed while living far away and on my own, from California to Costa Rica, from Utah to New York, at whatever cost. She is realistic, not idealistic, in her thinking when I come to her with a concern or problem, which I appreciate. She is honest and gives all her time to her children and their children (just ask my dad). She spends lots of time with him, too, and demonstrates patience, even when he can be cranky and frustrating. She taught me to always say my prayers by kneeling beside me throughout my childhood, every night.I am grateful every single day, and every hour, for being blessed with a wonderful, kind, and loving mother. When I hear others complain about their mothers or say they aren't that close with theirs, or that they don't talk to theirs that often, I cannot relate. I don't understand.

My mother is the greatest blessing in my life.I love you, mama.Happy Mother's Day.

Let Freedom Ring!!!!

2011-05-05T18:54:00.001-04:00

The day is here. I'm almost speechless. It came in a flash and some big changes are ahead, but I'm ready. I finished my last paper early, officially (and literally) kissed it goodbye:

Then I took advantage of the nearly perfect day (a bit windy for complete perfection) and strolled through Central Park for the first time this Spring.

It is so lovely! I will miss this park the most.

What a great way to end the semester!! It feels fantastic to be at the end. A lot of blood, sweat, and tears...but it was worth it!

One Day More!

2011-05-04T15:47:00.003-04:00

The Les Miserables song just popped into my head, so I just looked up the lyrics. The last stanza goes:

Tomorrow we'll discover
What our God in Heaven has in store
One more dawn
One more day
One day more!!

Actually, here's the song clip. It does it better justice to listen to it.

Yessss! It's true!! Tomorrow is the day! My LAST day of school!!!! I can't believe it!!!!!!!!!

Also, this:

"There is a life about to start when tomorrow comes!"

I love this musical. I grew up listening to and became addicted for while in my adolescence. I wish it was still on Broadway here. I would've seen it multiple times by now.

Yes, tomorrow is a going to be a beautiful day!!!!!

There's No Place Like (Almost) Home

2011-05-01T22:05:00.006-04:00

This past weekend was fantastic. I played hard, even though I could've (and maybe should've) been working on finals. But no, the work will get done, and I have no regrets for playing instead. Friday I went to the Brooklyn Botanical Gardens with the Todds, my second family:Adorable! The weather was absolutely perfection and the blossoms were a-bloomin'!It was so fun. Again, glad I went instead of writing papers. Duh.

The next day I went on a road-trip via a luxury bus with a group of friends for Jendar's birthday. The destination?? The one and only Atlantic City! I knew I'd feel right at home with the casinos and hotels. It was strange, though, to walk out of those casinos and see the ocean. It was like Coney Island meets Las Vegas. We rode the ferris wheel and were the only five people on the entire thing. I don't know if that's awesome or sad. Probably sad.
This is the view from the top!

I ate a fried Snickers bar, bought salt water taffy, and rode in a "rolling cart"!Delicious!It's like a pedicab, but instead of pulling us along on a bike, the guy walked behind us and pushed! It felt a little strange, but was fun! The whole trip was fairly inexpensive and it was cool to see another part of the east coast. I hope to make a couple more little trips like this before I head west.

More Beauty, Please! Thank You!

2011-04-29T16:51:00.002-04:00

Spring is the best season ever.

Above is the Todd family, aka my second family. I babysit their beautiful children and love spending time with them. We went to Brooklyn Botanical Gardens this morning and the weather was perfect.

Ava's going through a hat phase. She's cool like that.

My Maker Made Beautiful Things

2011-04-27T17:38:00.001-04:00

The last few days have been perfect weather. It's been on the warm and humid side more than I like, but still, I can't complain when I walk by this:

I snapped this one for my mama:

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood! This garden of tulips is right across the street from my apartment. Amazing.

This, I will miss.

The Reason

2011-04-24T23:56:00.003-04:00

A Long Island Easter Sunday

2011-04-24T23:19:00.004-04:00

My sweet roommate Armineh invited me and another friend to her parents' house for Easter weekend. It was such a nice getaway! I felt like we were gone three days, when really, we were only there for 24 hours. We took the Long Island Railroad train last night and hung out, ate food, went to Target! I was so happy to be in a parking lot in Target!
I used to dislike shopping centers, 'cause that's all Las Vegas is made up of, but oh, how I miss them now! I purchased some hot tights to go with my new hot shoes! I splurged on these puppies but they were worth it! I want to wear these every day, and I just might (if it's not raining. It's been raining for days and days now).

Today was church, and it is on the second floor of a public library. It was so cool to walk in the entrance of this library, but then up the stairs to find church chairs, church carpet, church paintings on the walls, etc.! I love the church. It's even unified when it comes to trappings and things. And someone at church had this Las Vegas-themed tote bag! Nice.
The weather was so beautiful today, so after church we relaxed on a blanket in the yard. It was super bright outside, but I was in high heaven!We also took turns on the tree swing, but it made me nauseous (stupid sensitive stomach of mine). But at least I got a cute picture!Easter dinner followed, as well as a nap and dessert. Her family was so nice and fun and made me and Cindy feel so welcomed! I'm so glad I went and rejuvenated before my two weeks of chaos.

TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!! And I will be D-O-N-E!!!!!!!!

The Three Rs

2011-04-22T14:45:00.003-04:00

Happy Earth Day!

There she is, Mother Earth. It's crazy when you really think about it, that we live on this round, floating ball of water and land. We just exist in the middle of the universe. No big whoop. Right?

WRONG.

It is a big deal. And most things having to do with the earth is out of our control. We can't change the weather (I wish!), or the way the seasons change, or the color of the sky or flowers, etc. But one thing that we can control is how much we waste of what we consume. I am a major believer in recycling, just cause it makes so much sense. And it's really easy to do. You just put the container in one trash can instead of the other! That's it! I remember when the city of Las Vegas instituted a recycling program and distributed three color-coded containers for people to use. And my family participated in that program for awhile. I remember the red, blue, and white baskets we'd put out with the trash- one for paper, one for plastic, and one for aluminum and glass. I thought it was great! Well, my family stopped recycling a LONG TIME AGO, and I have given my parents a hard time about it in the recent past. I've tried several times to convince them that they should start to recycle again, but they just don't do it! I think it was when I lived in Salt Lake City that I began notice recycling again, because they had designated trash cans which made it easy, especially since everything went into one trash can! You didn't even have to separate paper from plastic or anything! They just didn't let you put glass in there, 'cause when they dumped it in the trucks, it would probably shatter everywhere.

When I moved to New York City, recycling got even better! This city is all about recycling, because, well...there are tons and tons of people who consume tons and tons of things every day. And this city is often looked at by others, so, the city took it a step further and will fine you if they catch you not recycling! Amazing. I know, I'm a nerd. But really, I do love when I notice a product I bought was made with recycled goods. I bought a tote bag made of recycled plastic bottles, for goodness sake! That is great. So yeah, I'm into recycling. I'm a believer.

Well, Duh.

2011-04-21T10:39:00.004-04:00

I love when I read articles like this one and it falls right in line what I've always believed as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It's like, well, duh! Of course a person will live longer if they are "prudent and persistent" in life! And I must say, if any one group of people are the definition of conscientiousness, it's the Mormons. Am I right!? Yes, yes, I am. We're all about the facts this New York Times article and the book its promoting are stating. It just took them years and years of study and research to figure it out. Working hard, eating healthy, abstaining from smoking and drinking, being organized, etc, etc. It's not rocket science, guys; it's truth. It's divine.

Sigh.

I just have to remain patient and understand that the world still has a lot of catching up to do. Also, this reminds me of how blessed I am in my life, and also how I am responsible to help people know what I know.

"For of him unto whom much is given, much is required..." Doctrine and Covenants 82:3

A Snapshot

2011-04-20T14:41:00.001-04:00

This is what my life looks like and will look like for the next two weeks:

One final paper down!! Two more to go!!!!! The end is near!!!! Agggh!

On a different note, a man was wearing this yesterday on the subway:

I wanted to tell him how awesome that was, but I chickened out. Oh, how I will miss the random and awesome things riding on public transit provides.

Baby, Baby!

2011-04-18T14:53:00.001-04:00

The Amy Grant song of the same title just came to mind when I typed that above. And I wrote the title above because another beautiful baby has entered the world within my circle of loved ones. Behold, Genevieve Elizabeth Ann Rose Smith!

(This is a photo from a computer screen. That as good as I can do this far away from my home. Sad.)

But isn't she BEAUTIFUL!!?? look at those cheeeeks! Oh. My. Goodness! I can hardly stand being away from all these babies I love. I know I'll be joining them soon, though, so it's bearable.

The Amy Grant song reference is actually really fitting, here, because the baby above belongs to my childhood bestest friend ever, Meleah, and our friendship began back when I was listening to (and quite frankly, a little obsessed with) Amy Grant songs.

Seriously. Meleah and I have been friends our whole lives. It's incredible to be friends with someone (that isn't a family member) through every single phase and transition and step throughout life. And we didn't even go to the same high school or college! That's how impressive it all really is. Not to mention, I've missed every major milestone in her adult life, thus far, due to pursuing my various paths of life. No, I'm not a bad friend. I just lived life and so did she. She could've given up on me a long time ago with me and my wandering ways. But she didn't. Instead, she has always kept in contact and made me feel loved and needed wherever I've gone, and has supported me in every crazy detour and path I've taken in life.

(Distant me taking a picture of close us).

And now she has a baby girl for me to love! Maybe she'll marry one of my nephews!

I can't wait to meet and hold and kiss all of them!

I Don't...

2011-04-15T22:57:00.006-04:00

- like to wear high heels
(I'm tall enough and they hurt my feet)
- wear lipstick
(chapstick is my best friend)
- do my hair, really
(that's why God made it curly)
- wear earrings
(a ring and a watch is all I sport)
- flirt
(at least, I don't really know how to)
- like manicures
(pedicures are good)
- like to dress up
(Sunday is the only time I wear dresses/skirts)
- choose to go dancing
(when given the opportunity)

...and I really never have. What kind of woman am I?!

I've thought about this off and on throughout my life. I've never been a "girly" girl, and neither have any of my sisters, when I really think about it. I come from a family of SIX girls and one boy,
and none of us girls are very girly. Some may wear heels and lipstick more than others. But I think we're all just right. A little bit of girly and a little bit of, "I could care less". haha. Maybe I should only speak for myself, but too late. I've already spoken for them, too. I'm so excited to spend more time with them real soon. I love my family!!!!

Me? Anxious?? Noooo.

2011-04-12T18:19:00.003-04:00

I'm just a good planner. I have this fear of being overwhelmed at the end of things, so I sometimes jump the gun on planning...well, in some aspects of my life, not all (like school work).

I ordered flat-rate boxes for my books and DVDs and picked up a few empty boxes for packing from my internship, all in preparation for my big move across the country in just a month and a half. Six-ish weeks. Holy cow, that's it. It never ceases to amaze me, how time flies. This is why I try and plan ahead.

And this is what tonight looks like:

There's nothing like living in a high rise. I'll miss some things about it, like this pretty view. April is a rainy, rainy month. Rain is much less fun when it happens all too often and you're exposed to it 80% of the time. But it's also what is responsible for the pretty green trees and flowers that are about to blossom in a few weeks (fingers crossed).

A Weekend

2011-04-10T19:23:00.001-04:00

Okay, I think actual Spring may be just around the corner:

Yellow blossoms are a promising sign. This, however,

is not. Above is me last Friday. It was freezing cold. I was not a happy camper and I sent it to Megan as proof. Tomorrow it says it going to be 80!! Is there no sense in the weather pattern, ever??

Also, is there no sense to women's fashion or more importantly, women's health??!
Three words: Out. Of. Control. Steve Madden, you should be ashamed of yourself.

I babysat a new family on Saturday and this was my favorite moment of the day:
Quietly watching The Backyardigans in complete construction worker attire (especially the one with his shirt off). Don't worry, I took them out for ice cream and to the playroom in the basement of their apartment prior to this. I'm not THAT kind of babysitter.

Signs of the Times

2011-04-07T13:54:00.003-04:00

I love Wednesdays. They have become my mid-week break days, as I don't have anything schedule that day until 4:55 pm (i.e. my one class that day and by far the easier one of my last semester). We basically just sit and talk about our experiences in our classes, our internships, and our futures as social workers. I don't want to say it's a total waste of time, 'cause I do enjoy it, but really, it's a little bit of a waste of time. I don't feel challenged or that I'm learning anything new. But it is called Integrative Practice Seminar, so, yeah. I guess that's what we do in there.

Anyway, on to more impressive matters. I took advantage of my day to relax by watching movies. I happened upon a Redbox movie kiosk the other day and decided to rent one or two. Or three. Ok, I got a little crazy. But they're only $1! So, why not?! Plus, I'm hitting a major "I don't want to do anything that requires brain power anymore" wall these days.

I watched one on my iPhone while traveling to and from my old internship in Brooklyn to pick up a reimbursement check.I watch the second one when I got back from Brooklyn while I ate lunch and relaxed.

I watched the third one (I know! Ridiculous.) when I got home after school and Institute.

I watched three movies in one day. THREE. Haha. The last time that almost happened was when my friends and I back in high school attempted to watch the Star Wars Trilogy (we never made it past Empire Strikes Back). So, I know how crazy this is, especially since I managed to run errands, attend classes at NYU and Institute, and get to bed at my usual hour of around 1 am, AND watch three movies everywhere in between. So I'm not lazy or irresponsible--just a miracle worker.

For a Positive, a Negative

2011-04-06T00:26:00.007-04:00

The last post was positive, so here goes some complaining. I am so DONE with being cold! While the weather is warming up these days, it is way too gradual. I counted today at how many cold months there are in this neck of the woods and the number is six. SIX!!!!! That is half the entire year. Uggggh. Unbelievable. I mean, I already knew the answer to that question. I did experience the same thing with winters in Utah. I should be grateful we don't have snow still falling like they did in Utah recently. Sick.

I can definitely tell that I am ready for a change soon and a change that I did not desire for many years...HEAT! When I compare the weather here and the weather in Las Vegas on a daily basis, I begin to lose my mind a little.
Above: That was actually an unusually good week!

And a weird week for LV, too.

Okay, so I don't really need 90-degree weather in April, either. But Vegas is only really, REALLY hot for three full months in the summer. The rest is bearable and a lot of it even enjoyable. But handling six months of cold, cold, and more and more cold, involving tons of snow and even more rain, I think I'll take the trade off. I'm ready.

I Have Learned For Myself

2011-04-03T18:56:00.001-04:00

It's such a comfort in my life to know I don't rely on anyone else to tell me what is truth or not. I am educated by others, of course, but verifying whether or not what I'm taught is truth is left for me to discover. And I can discover it on my own, with the exception of God's help. So I guess I can't say I'm completely on my own. Thank goodness. And my parents taught me well. I cannot forgot to include them regarding the stable ground I now stand on.

My favorite thing to tell people I met as a missionary was that they could find out for themselves the truth. That's the power of our divinity as children of God. We can go to Him and ask.

Don't Be Fooled

2011-04-01T00:23:00.002-04:00

What I'm about to speak of happened yesterday, otherwise, I don't think I'd believe it myself. I opened an email from one of my favorite bands The Swell Season to see this subject line:

"Pre-Sale Tickets: Glen Hansard Supporting Eddie Vedder Tour"

I could not believe my eyes! My two favorite men on the planet!!!
Together?!? On tour?!?!!!!! I dropped everything I was doing and couldn't concentrate until I had purchased a ticket. I texted my life-long friend and fellow avid Pearl Jam fan, Michelle, to see not if, but when, she was going. Sure enough, she had already bought tickets through the PJ fan club for the show in Santa Barbara. The Santa Barbara show, it is! I knew I could count on her. I followed suit and got my ticket!! I was in a fantastic mood the rest of the day and will be for the next three to four months, as I await for July 9th to arrive.
This is Eddie's new single for his solo album. It's perfect. The whole album is just him and a ukulele. I love that I've aged with Eddie Vedder. He's gone from alternative/grunge to this, and it just makes sense. WE make sense. If only he knew of me. ha.

Time Out

2011-03-30T23:59:00.004-04:00

I went to the temple today in the middle of the day, and it was just what I needed. It felt good to just be there and not worry about things. My mind did start to wander a few times, but not for long. I brought it back to the important moment at hand. I'm trying this new thing called putting my priorities in line, 'cause, hey--no one likes a hypocrite. I spoke in church a few weeks ago about the importance of priorities when it comes to relationships, and mine with God can always be improved upon. I'm looking forward to the General Conference of the church this weekend. Some of my favs to look out for are:

Henry B. Eyring

(I love an emotional man, what can I say? He always moves me.)

Jeffrey R. Holland
(The guy nails it every time. Whatever he says is just what I need to hear. Always.)

And, of course, President Thomas S. Monson, the living prophet of God.
Yeah, I'd say I definitely am looking forward to hearing his words, 'cause really, they're God's.

This conference couldn't come at a better time of my life. I'm in the last weeks of my education, about to embark on a new part of my life. Direction is what I'm looking for and is exactly what I will find this weekend. For that, I am grateful.

I'm So Blessed

2011-03-27T15:12:00.005-04:00

One of my favorite children's books of all time is:
This sweet little bird who hatched while his mother is away getting him food, goes searching for his mother. He approaches various animals and objects, each time asking them, "Are you my mother?". He cannot seem to find her, and eventually shouts in desperation, "I want my mother!". As fate would have it, he makes it back to the nest just as his mother is returning, and they are happily reunited.

I don't know why this particular book popped into my mind just now, except for the fact that today is my mother's birthday, and I'm so grateful that she is MY mother. And also grateful to know that I, too, will soon be reunited with her. There! That's the connection. ha. I knew it was somewhere. I'm a nerd, I know. But my mom would never say so. She also would never tell anyone how often it is that I've shouted, "I want my mother!" demonstrated by calling her multiple times a week, doing most of the talking in our conversations, complaining about this and that. Mom, you're so patient and kind and understanding. I would be so annoyed with me over the years, at my neediness and negative attitude sometimes. YOU'RE THE GREATEST MOTHER, EVER, MOM! I LOVE YOU!!! Happy Birthday!!!:)

Five Weeks

2011-03-27T15:01:00.003-04:00

Okay, so I'm already counting down. Duh. I have only five weeks until classes end. FIVE. That's a big deal. I can count that on one hand. While it will be strange to close this seemingly everlasting chapter of my life as a student, I think I'm ready for it. I'm about to be a "professional." Not saying I'm highly skilled in the career field about to embark on, just yet, but that I'm about to begin the career chapter of my life. And what's going through my mind these days is, I better prepare myself to feel like a "grown up".

Let's be honest, being a student has kept me in this perpetual world of feeling like a kid. What's added to this feeling is the fact that I've yet to marry and have children. I think that would also make me feel "grown up". But alas, a student only have I been, and it's been... fun? I swear I've been on this educational path not completely by choice. While a lot of it has been fun, it's been really hard work and sometimes I've wondered why I've kept going. I like to think and also believe that someone else had this educational path in mind for me. How I explain maybe not always loving what I do, but feeling like it's what I'm supposed to be doing is summed up in this scripture:

"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God"-Romans 12:2

I feel like this educational path I've walked down has been largely God's will. And that I came to New York to experience what I have, resulting in shaping who I am and what I am to become. For that, I'm grateful. And not just the educational path, but all paths I go down lead me to who I am. It's just that the educational path has definitely been the most prominent in my life, so far. I'm excited to walk down others soon.

Beating a Dead Horse

2011-03-25T00:38:00.007-04:00

Lately I feel like I've been posting about things on Facebook and then coming on here and blogging about it, hence, the title of this post. But I cannot resist writing of this topic in more depth on here. The new Broadway musical, just opened and I've been reading a lot of reviews/opinions on it from both Mormons and non-Mormons. You can guess what that's been like. It's strange, actually, reading reviews from members of the church who have seen the show. One person said something like, "well, those who are more conservative or the really righteous Mormons probably shouldn't go see it--they'll be offended." This sort of statement boggles my mind. If one Mormon is offended by the content, wouldn't or shouldn't all be offended, especially if it's targeting the beliefs and doctrine? Forget that it's strange. All religions have strange things about them, and people have claimed that this musical doesn't just make fun of the Mormon religion, but all religions (so, that makes it okay, right?). At first, I wasn't offended, but more irritated and confused by it all. And then I kept reading about it and some details of what is said and occurs during the play was enough for me to change my mind. I'm all for poking fun and laughing at our quirky Mormon culture ways, history, whathaveyou. But when the fun targets sacred doctrine, that's another story.

So, the guys who do the show "South Park" are known for their satire. They LIVE and THRIVE on making fun of other people, namely groups of a certain types of people, whether it's political, racial, or religious, etc. These are the guys behind this show, and they think Mormons are idiots, albeit, kind idiots (one article quoted one of the two guys saying he never met a Mormon he didn't like). Have they poked fun at the Mormon religion and it's culture and people before? Yes. You could say they've been "beating a dead horse" for decades. It's not a big surprise that their musical is no different. In fact, from what I've read, it sounds a lot worse, as in more offensive (which makes sense because they don't have TV networks to censor them).

The statement I made on FB was mostly focused on why and how they pulled this off. From the minute I heard this musical was actually on its way, I thought, how is it possible that they can use "The Book of Mormon" as its title? Does the church not have copyright laws on the title of this book of scripture? Guess not. But it doesn't matter. The church won't be hurt by this.

Anyway, I could go on and on and point out more things I've read and pick things apart, etc. But I won't. I wanted to end on the church's official response to this show:

"The production may attempt to entertain audiences for an evening, but The Book of Mormon as a volume of scripture will change people's lives forever by bringing them closer to Christ."

You can see it here . I love it. It's pure and simple and to the point.

I Spy with My Little Eye

2011-03-24T01:00:00.008-04:00

All this time I have been in New York City, and still I hadn't experienced any celebrity sightings. Although, I did see the main woman from "Law & Order: SVU" (Mariska Hargitay) in Central Park my first summer here, but would've never known it if it had not been pointed out to me. I also swear I once saw Jennifer Garner walking out of Central Park while talking on her cell phone. But anyway, now I can say I've seen and recognized two people in the biz. Both sightings are of men who are not the most popular or famous celebrities. In fact, they probably go throughout their days with not many people catching on to who they are. It was fun for me to recognize them.

The first sighting was as I walking up Columbus Avenue (near my apartment) with a friend. A man was walking toward us and I happened to look at him and catch his eye. He looked familiar to me and I couldn't place it at first. A few hours later I remembered that he was in one of my favorite movies of the 80s, "Chances Are". He's been in other things, but this is the one that stuck out to me (the main character is a young, very attractive Robert Downey, Jr. so, duh. Of course I remembered that one). But anyway, this is him, Joe Grifasi!

He's also been on "Law & Order" and movies like "13 Going on 30". More of a TV guy, I think. He lays low.

The second celeb sighting was the one and only Joel Godard, former announcer for "Late Night with Conan O'Brien"! Okay, so this one I was super excited about. I was an avid Conan watcher for many years, and for sure remember this guy:

I asked how long he was the announcer on the show and he said 17 seasons! That's a long time. The writers/producers/whoever on that show had him doing some really strange things, at times. He always had this huge, kinda crazy smile on his face, no matter what they had him saying or doing. But anyway, I saw him waiting at my bus stop near my internship on the Upper East Side. He was waiting for the same bus. When I stared long enough to know it was him for sure, I went up to him and asked if he was who I thought he was. He was the nicest man! He asked me my name, and we ended up chatting on the bus for multiple stops. I know, so random, but it was so awesome to me. We talked a little bit about Conan and about the way things ended for him, etc. We talked about New York and California, traveling and school. He mentioned his wife and son. Anyway, it was fun. My favorite part of our conversation was when he said I must've started watching Late Night with Conan when I was pretty young. I told him I must've been in high school, which was in the mid 90s and that I just turned 31 this month. He then said, "Oh, okay. You're older than I thought you were". To that, I told him, "Thank you!"

No, it wasn't Brad Pitt or Tom Hanks, but it was fun to spot these guys out and about. It kinda makes me realize that people are just out there, doing their jobs and living life. At least, these guys get to do that without all the cameras and press in their faces.

Springtime

2011-03-21T17:38:00.000-04:00

After a long, snowy winter, I'm excited to exclaim that it's officially Spring! See?!

The tulips and other plants are popping up from the earth. It's a beautiful sight to behold.

Enter rainy season. Now if I could just find rain boots that don't rub against my feet! Yep, the striped ones are going back. My stupid feet and their sensitivities.

Rested and Relaxed

2011-03-20T21:27:00.002-04:00

Well, the last Spring Break of my life is over. I am quite satisfied with it, as it has felt exceptionally long. I feel like I haven't been to work in a month! I did have those two classes, so I can't say the same for school, but honestly, a break from my internship was what I really needed. It's hard to stay motivated doing really hard work when not being paid for it. I should want to help people out of the goodness of my heart, and I can say that I have really gone the extra mile quite often in my non-paid internship--I realize that I'm there to gain the experience and am grateful for it. But anyway, it was a great week off and I feel rejuvenated.

Friday was the most gorgeous day ever. It was almost 70 degrees. I babysat and we went to a playground in Central Park. Here's adorable Ava:

I love her! I can't believe I didn't take any of Brandon. I'm not playing favorites, I promise. It is the age, though. I must say between one and two years is my fav.

Afterward I went around the shops in the area and found a gem in a thrift store:

How could anyone give this away?!? I actually saw the album "Ten", Pearl Jam's first album, as well! Unbelievable. And then, my eyes saw this and I purchased without hesitation:

This movie is one of the main memories I have of when my sisters, cousins, and I would spend the night at my grandma and grandpa Koch's house! "Flash! Aaaaaaaah!" Oh yes. I can't wait to watch this. There IS a VHS player in my apartment. And to close my week I went 80s dancing with some friends at a club called The Pyramid. I'm rarely in the mood to go dancing--I don't know why. But when I do go, I'm always glad I did. It was a lot of fun. Good people and good music = good times.

St. Stay in All Day Day

2011-03-17T23:58:00.001-04:00

I didn't exactly where green today. I stayed home and relaxed, then did some homework, then babysat tonight. Yes, there was parade festivities I missed out on and parties elsewhere, but that's okay. I saw the parade here in New York last year when my mom and sister were here visiting. I also saw it when I was visited NYC for my first time ever in 2001. The parade here is the longest running St. Patty's parade in history! It first began in 1762. That's before the Declaration of Independence was even signed! Crazy.

And I don't mean to be sacrilegious with the title of this post. I think any holiday that celebrates the arrival of Christianity to any country is worth a day of recognition. Most of what I see happen on March 17th (or March 12th if you're in Philadelphia) is people wearing green and getting drunk and not thinking of any saint at all.
Pardon the foul language above, but I think I've made my point.

Day 3 of Spring Break Was A-Okay

2011-03-17T00:03:00.003-04:00

I went to day two (and the last) of my mini course, "Outcome Management". To be honest, today was tougher to sit through than yesterday. I was so bored after the halfway point and it showed. I started doodling in the margins of my notes, which is always a sure sign I've checked out. While I believe that good management makes a big impact on the outcome of program services, I just don't have the brain for management thinking. I told the class (of 6 students and 1 professor), I'm weird because I'd rather be told what to do than to tell others what to do. Give me a task and I'll get it done, but don't ask me how to tell someone else how to do something. That's just the way I am, and I don't mind.

After class, I went to DSW to use my $5 off birthday coupon! I've been in desperate need of new rain boots--ones that actually fit me and don't leak! So, behold!
They're adorable and thanks to Megan for helping me decide between two designs via picture text!

I babysat some adorable kids tonight after shopping. One is only four months old. Feeding him a bottle and wrapping him in a blanket made me super excited to hold my new nephews! Ugh! I can't wait. But, this has to happen, first:

I got this in the mail today. Eeeek! I can't believe it. I also can't believe this:

Only in New York are there New York City-themed paper goods.

I Feel So Wicked

2011-03-15T23:05:00.004-04:00

My last ever Spring Break is off to a grand start! I slept in Monday and stayed in all day, did laundry, watched "Pride and Prejudice". I don't know what it is about that movie, but it makes me want love, even though the characters, Lizzie (aka: me) and Mr. Darcy (aka: the man I've yet to meet), have quite the rocky start. He's proud and she's prejudice. Pride and prejudice! A genius title.

Then, today I had day one of a two-day mini class I signed up for as an elective (during Spring Break?! I know, it is kinda crazy). It wasn't so bad. I was there at 10 am and out by 3:30 pm and onto Times Square to try and win tickets to see "Wicked". And guess what?! It worked!
Well, technically, my friend Veronica won tickets. Her name got drawn and I got to benefit from it! I put up a Facebook post, asking if anyone wanted to join me to up the odds of winning, and Veronica literally upped the odds BY winning! Amazing. The show was amazing. The seats we had were amazing, as were the costumes, music, singing, acting, the set, etc. All wonderfully amazing. I'm so happy I finally saw that show. To make the night even greater, we got dinner beforehand at this place called Juniors that is know for its cheesecake. We got burgers and fries that came with the largest onion rings I've ever seen. And then, of course, we shared a cheesecake. It was the best cheesecake I think I've ever had. What a fantastic night! And all that for under 50 bucks!

Spontaneous Road Trips Are Fun

2011-03-14T00:22:00.010-04:00

Those who know me well know I have the tendency to be spontaneous in life. When I was 20 years old, I decided to move to California and within two months I was there. Same with Utah--decided to move, was there a month later. Road trips happen quickly, too. And last weekend was just that. I heard my friend was going to Philadelphia, inquired about it, and she told me to come along! So, I did. And it was awesome. I had no idea that Philadelphia was only two hours away by bus. If I had know that, I would've gone long ago, I think. I only went for one night and a day, because I was speaking in church the next day. Still, it was really fun. There was definitely more I could've done and seen, but it actually was a perfect day and a half trip. I loved getting out of NYC and into a smaller, cleaner city for a change. I can check Philly off my list of major cities, now. See below for evidence of what I saw and did:

First place I saw was good ol' TJ's. I stopped in and bought a toothbrush. Second stop, Jim's Steaks for a cheesesteak sandwich!Third stop, a place listed as a "chocolate bar" called Golosa. Yes, please! The hot chocolate and desserts here were amazing. The owner is an award-winning chocolatier and this is the only shop in the whole country that has his chocolates.
I ordered flower tea and a biscotti cookie sampler that was priced as one item on the menu. Only $6.75! I love non-New York prices! And look at this presentation! Adorable.This is the hostel we stayed in, called Chamounix Mansion:It used to be an old mansion with amazing common rooms, like this oneAnd this was outside the room we stayed in. A nice touch, right?
Breakfast at this place called Green Eggs Cafe was amazing. I ordered an item called the "Kitchen Sink". It was a delicious conglomerate of eggs, cheese, potatoes, red and green peppers, onions, with fresh biscuits and gravy on top. It was so good! And so much food! First stop after breakfast, Philadelphia Museum of Art! Yes, that is a statue of Rocky outside, since here is where he ran up the steps. True story. Rocky is real.Saw some awesome paintings, like this one.Next stop, the Eastern State Penitentiary. This place was massive and a little bit creepy. It closed down in the early 70s and was just abandoned, left to deteriorate. Below is the cell that Al Capone was kept in for a short time.Apparently, he was treated like royalty, since he was a famous criminal.This is "Death Row".
I have a ton more pictures, but this will do. It was an excellent trip with two awesome people, and I'm so glad I went. Where to next?!

Consumers, Don't Be Fooled

2011-03-08T23:44:00.002-05:00

This kind of stuff makes me so mad.
These two items cost the same. You would think the one that looks bigger would have more material. Think again! That massive package on the right is HALF of what is on the left. HALF! I'm onto you Oral B. Slap the word "Ultra" on a product and make the package bigger and sucker those people into thinking they're getting a great deal. Whatever. Glide is better anyway. Seriously. Have you TRIED their Deep Clean floss?! It will change your life!

Older and Wiser

2011-03-08T11:30:00.001-05:00

I had a fantastic birthday week last week. I spent it eating good food and hanging out with great people. That's all anyone needs in life, right?? Basically. I went to see "Driving Miss Daisy" on Broadway
starring James Earl Jones!!

It was really cool to see him live and in action. He was excellent, of course. I'm glad I saw that play now, because it's ending soon. And also, he's getting pretty old! I'll always love that Darth Vader voice of his.

On an older and wiser note, I feel like I have learned a lot about myself these nearly two years in New York, things I like about myself and things I don't like. One thing i don't like is that the older I get, the more overwhelmed I feel about life. Not good, right? Well, let's just say that's normal. More life means more responsibility. And more responsibility means more stress. I guess it's the way I learn to handle that stress that matters.

Cheese fries, anyone??

Have I Mentioned Life is Hard?

2011-03-04T13:57:00.003-05:00

The first few months to 2011 have been a little bit unreal. I'm realizing that I'm at the age where major life changes are happening all around me, ALL the time. Babies upon babies are being born to my family and friends, and death is taking its toll on my loved ones, too. My best friend's dad passed away yesterday. We have been talking over the last week or so about him, and she has kept me posted about his progress. He battled cancer multiple times, among other ailments throughout his life, and this time what the doctors tried in order to help him just wasn't working. My heart aches for her and her family, and the hardest part is being so far away from them at such a time (I love you, Megan). Not that I could do anything to change how they feel, but just being able to be present and sit with loved ones in times of mourning is a good thing.

I was homesick before, but now, after all that has been going on at home, the homesickness is escalating. And the fact that I'm so close now to actually moving back to Las Vegas, it's even worse, which is ironic. I know it's coming, so it makes it harder to hold out till the end. I can do it, though. Besides, I don't have a choice.

I've been asked to speak in church in a few weeks, and the topic couldn't be more fitting for me right now--"priorities in our lives". With everything going on at home, I think it's obvious of what my focus is going to be. That, and I think it's a subtle hint from God that I could use some review on the subject and apply it to my own life. An article was shared with me to use when preparing my talk, and I thought I'd share it
here

On This Day...

2011-03-01T14:43:00.001-05:00

...I was born!!! Today is the day I entered the world, a mere 31 years ago. Time flies when you're having fun! Seriously, my life has been pretty stinkin' good, so far. I know I've complained PLENTY over the years, but I cannot deny what I've been given. It is much. Very, very much.

So far today, I got to sleep in a little bit and wake up at my favorite time to wake up (9 am). Bliss! Then, I ate a delicious homemade sandwich with some of my favorite things on it--rosemary ham, avocado, tomato, provolone cheese--with my favorite chips (Sun Chips Original) and carrots and celery. Next, I get to be a part of a mom and a baby reuniting for good.

Tonight, it's on to the Shake Shack for my favorite hamburger and fries in the city!
I heard they give out a free custard on your birthday!! Free ice cream, here I come!

Like I said, life is good.:)

UPDATE:
So, I went to Shake Shack and this was their featured menu today!

Banana Bread-flavored custard?!!? I thought I was dreaming. A few sweet friends bought me a big scoop of it and we devoured it! Delish!!!

I also wanted to point out, I didn't have to wait for a single bus or subway today! They all were arriving just as I did! Seriously a birthday miracle and gift. Made my day.

And last, but not least, my Netflix arrived in the mail today and it's "Daria," the animated show that was on MTV in the late 90s!
I loved this show! I watched the first episode. So good.

A roommate surprised me with a card and a movie theater gift card and another roommate bought me a cake and candles! Like I said, I live a good life. I can go to sleep thoroughly satisfied.

Number 21 and Counting!

2011-02-28T23:01:00.000-05:00

I'm an aunt again!!! It's about stinkin time my family brought another baby into this world. The Lord knows I'm not bringing any down, any time soon! Phew!
Little Forrest was born on Sunday, and I couldn't love him more. I'm just so jealous of the rest of my family who has already met him! The sweet spirit of his was anxious to come to earth and start his life and came early, so he's spending some time resting up in the hospital until he's a little stronger. By the time I get home, he'll be nice and strong, ready to be held and cuddled and kissed!! I am counting the days. And he's not the only wee one that will be waiting! My other sister is having her baby within the next few weeks! And then on top of that, one of my BFFs is having a baby, too! Babies galore! I'll be surrounded and couldn't be happier about it.
Babies. Babies. BABIES!!!!:)

A Very Special Weekend

2011-02-26T11:22:00.005-05:00

Well, I think I've rested as much as I can, just in time for a semi-busy, and very important weekend. I spent time in my bed since Wednesday night to Friday afternoon, sleeping as much as I can, trying to kick this nasty cold. I can't remember the last time I had such a bad cold accompanied with coughing, blowing my nose every five minutes so that it's now raw, a sore throat that felt like it was on fire the first few days...ugh. I'm definitely on the mend, but I'm still congested and am gonna need some time to fully feel back to normal.

On Thursday, despite feeling quite miserable, I had a ticket to see The Phantom of the Opera on Broadway. I bought the ticket weeks ago through NYU, and I've been wanting to see this show since I was probably 12 years old. I grew up in a household where the music of Phantom was played so often that I know nearly every word to every song. I fell in love with the music then, and can't believe I saw it for the first time just now. It was about time. So, I got myself out of bed, put on some nice slacks and a sweater, packed my bag with travel packs of Kleenex, cough drops and water, and took myself to the Majestic Theater in Times Square. Luckily, I had a seat next to a wall, so I could turn and cough or blow my nose (which I only did during applause or loud music, to be respectful of others). I knew my seat wasn't going to be that close to the stage, so I brought binoculars (yes, I own a pair, knowing I would never have close seats to any show), and I'm glad I did! It was so great to see the whole stage from afar, but then to also get to see the characters' faces up close added to the whole thing. Phantom is such an old production, or long-time running, that I wasn't as impressed as I thought I would be. I think if I saw this musical back when I was younger, it would've been more impressive. Don't get me wrong, it was still amazing. I'm so glad I got to go, finally.

Yesterday, I also got myself out of bed and dressed up for a very special occasion. One of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Elder David Bednar was here, live and in person, to speak to the single adult population of the church. Lots other people that don't necessarily fit that category also showed their faces, naturally. Who would miss it!? He is such a powerful speaker (as they all are). Elder L. Whitney Clayton of the Seventy was also here to speak. I should rephrase that, though. Neither of them really came to speak to us, but rather, they opened the evening up by saying they were not here to give talks, but to have a Q & A session instead. That was the rumor going around, so I kinda expected it. I guess that's Elder Bednar's style he is known for. It was pretty cool to hear sincere questions, ones that I would've asked myself, given that I fall in to the same age group and state of life of others in the room. And Elder Bednar said he likes doing these Q&A's with our age group, because the questions asked are usually genuine and sincere. Afterwards, he and Elder Clayton stayed to shake everyone's hand that wanted to. They probably stood up there for an hour, easy, and shook hundreds of hands, mainly because they care that much and know how much it would mean to everyone there. I got to shake both those brethren's hands, and to Elder Bednar I told him I appreciated what he said about church being about the Sacrament. My comment was in response to his comment to a question regarding the people who fall into the "mid singles" category of the church. A girl stood up and basically asked him, "what about us?". She stated that she's had friends who have stopped going to church because they don't feel like they fit in anywhere in the church, post Singles ward era. I loved Elder Bednar's response to her, which was basically summed up in my comment to him. Church is about the Sacrament. It's not about who is going to be there, or what I should wear to catch someone's attention. To me, the core issue I have with Singles wards is just that--they create this false sense of what church is about. Have I been grateful for the instant group of friends I've had, anywhere and everywhere I have moved? Yes. Have I felt comforted because I have been surrounded by people who are in the same stage of life that I have been in, because I feel like I can relate to them in many ways? Yes. But is that why I go to church? No. I go to church to learn the gospel, to be strengthened, to take the Sacrament and renew my baptismal covenants. I will soon be "aging out" of the Singles ward phase in my life, and I am not worried one bit about feeling like I do not belong. I belong because I am a follower of Christ.

Today is another great opportunity to dress up and attend something very special. My friend who I met back in November, when he first started coming to church to check out what it had to offer him, is getting baptized. I had the special opportunity on a few occasions to talk to him about the gospel, one on one. I could tell that he was truly and sincerely seeking to know the truth. I'm so grateful that I was able to share with him my thoughts and feelings on the gospel, and so grateful that we've become friends during his conversion process. And I'm so excited to attend his baptism tonight. (p.s. I also got to witness my friend shaking the hand of an apostle last night. My friend asked Elder Bednar advice for someone who is about to get baptized. Elder Bednar told him two things: 1. Don't get mad--people will do stupid things, but don't get mad, and 2.) You're an agent, not an object, which he spoke about that night. We have the power to act, not to be acted upon. I thought that was a pretty cool thing to witness).

And tomorrow, as usual, I'll have another chance to dress up and attend something very special. It happens each week, and I couldn't be happier about it. I get to attend church and partake of the Sacrament, which is what all of this is all about.

Three Strikes, I'm Out

2011-02-24T01:04:00.007-05:00

I'm pretty sure this is the third time I've been sick in the last four months. That is WAY TOO MANY times for me. I used to only rarely get sick, so this winter has been out of control. I found this image to depict how I really feel about it (Mom, I know you have a sense of humor).For real. I was talking to a cab driver the other day and he said the blizzard that happened over Christmas break was the worst he'd seen in 15 years!!! 15!!! That's insane. Well, my sickness I blame on being in and out of cold weather mostly, the nasty cold wind last weekend, and maybe I don't always get enough rest or adequate nutrition. I'm always busy with either my internship (i.e. as of late, visiting my clients at hospitals a day or two after they've given birth and to discharge their newborns from the hospital), and school (evening classes make for really long days), and church-related outings (church itself, an awesome institute class), and social outings (birthday parties, etc.). Needless to say, I'm very much looking forward to graduating in three months!!!! That's it! THREE months! It's hardly believable.

I have a vacation planned post graduation/pre moving back to Las Vegas. I'm going to spend a week on the beach in North Carolina with a bunch of Mormon singles. It's the famous, annual, long-time running "Duck Beach" vacation. I heard about it last summer, as it was the talk of the town for a bit. I didn't ever think I'd go. I had high hopes for my celebratory graduation trip--two weeks spent exploring Europe or a 12-day Mediterranean cruise. Yeah. High hopes. But when I thought about it, those trips would be a bit pricey and may take more effort than I'd like. This beach trip is just what I need. It's inexpensive, relaxing, someone else is organizing it, and there's a built-in social aspect to it all. And besides, here's the house I'll be staying in and it's surroundings:Yeah, I think I made a wonderful choice. Now if May 27th would just get here, already! I'm waiting impatiently.

A Tragedy

2011-02-23T09:40:00.003-05:00

I'm being reminded lately of how precious time is. Last night I found out my niece's adorable little dog, Todd, drowned and died yesterday. A tragic event that no one could've predicted. He was just a pup, only two years old. My heart aches for my niece and the rest of the family. And I LOVED that adorable little thing.
I spoke to my niece on the phone after I found out, and she pointed out how it's kinda crazy how attached you can get to an animal. But it makes sense, too. He will be greatly missed!

The Heat is On!

2011-02-17T13:30:00.001-05:00

These warm days must be just teasers, but it is too warm outside today for my big puffy sleeping bag coat!
The birds are out AND are even singing! You know it's a beautiful day when the birds are singing. It's fact. And the forecast for the tomorrow is a miracle.
I was very afraid of February and she was nasty in the beginning. But I think now she's trying to make up for her behavior. Bring on March, please! And make it beautiful.

The End is Near

2011-02-17T12:21:00.003-05:00

Okay, I admit it. All I can think about lately is the end of student life as I know it and everything that will follow. There are a lot of big changes coming up in my life; turning one year older and what that means to my religious culture-based social life, obtaining a master's degree, celebration of my accomplishment via vacation, moving back to Las Vegas, beginning my career. All in that order. I'd say those are some huge changes, no? HUGE. Sure, I'm nervous, a bit anxious, but also excited. I have so much to look forward to.
I saw this advertisement on the subway yesterday. It's funny how the company used that quote to encourage change or to state the change is a good thing, and it is. But I actually read it as, maybe I need to stop changing (i.e. my environment) after this New York chapter in my life. I've been thinking that way ever since I got here, when before, I always was always thinking, "Where should I move to next?! What's the next adventure?!". So, the fact that I've pretty much been homesick (in varying degrees) throughout my entire time here, I am confident in my choice to move back home. And after last night, it's official. June 2nd, baby!! Mark your calendars!!!:)

All You Need is Love

2011-02-16T17:59:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm a few days late, but I had a great Valentine's day. I worked at my internship by day and went to a singles Mormon party by night. I wore red tights and a gray skirt with a pink patterned sweater. I warned my roommates, I was going to be obnoxiously Valentines-y with my outfit. It was cute and I got a few compliments. It was a fun party and I saw some old faces and new and some in between. I handed out these adorable Valentine's cards to a handful of friends and the reactions were priceless. Each person was so flattered and grateful for their hand-delivered, old skool-style valentine. The cards were space-themed with little old-fashioned cartoon kids on them, with sayings like, "I don't like space between us" or

"You're out of this world! Be mine!". They were a hit and I'm glad I could make a few people feel special.:)

Oldies But Goodies

2011-02-11T22:57:00.007-05:00

I snagged more old photos while I was home last week and wanted to share them. My parents are gorgeous, no?! I'm just sayin'.

And then...the best thing that ever happened to them happened...ME!!!! :)It's the truth. Just like it's true that I'm my grandpa's favorite granddaughter. :)
Speaking of grandpa, I miss him a whole lot. I'm kind of having a hard time (no surprise, there). However, I am fortunate to have received some very special keepsakes of my grandparents'. While most of the keepsakes are being stored at my parents' house for now, I did bring a few items with me.

First, my grandpa's travel bag. I love it! It's exactly what I'd pick out for myself:
Second, access to an original classic:
This is FOR REAL. An original Simon Says game from the 1980s! And it's in mint condition! Amazing.

And third, a special little reminder of my grandpa's choice for a best friend for as long as I knew him:
The adorable, fluffy and white bichon dogs I loved so much while growing up (namely, Angie, Tiger, and Max).

There's much more dear to my heart waiting for me in a box back home (thank you, mama). I look forward to getting to enjoy them all real soon.

That's MY grandpa!

2011-02-08T23:38:00.002-05:00

This was July 2009. I think it was my mom who loved the beat of this song (she obviously didn't listen to the lyrics. i love you mama!) and put it on for the kids to dance. Well, more than just the kids danced! Meredith, as usual, was dancin' it up and my grandpa joined her! I'm so glad I caught this on video. I'll cherish it forever!!!

My Family Tree

2011-02-08T01:07:00.000-05:00

It was good to be with my family last weekend. I'm grateful I live in a day and age where a massive ton of metal with wings can transport me safely across 2000 miles of land so that I can be there to "mourn with those that mourn, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort". I had the opportunity to visit my grandparents' house a few more times and reminisce my lifetime spent there--slumber parties with my cousins, annual family Christmas parties with pinatas and gift exchanges, fluffy white dogs to pet, stories told of war and faith, an endless supply of pistachios, and lots and lots of unconditional love and attention. I tell you what, I've had it real good. I've been blessed with an amazing family.

I had fun exploring lots of old photographs my grandparents had on their wall all these years.
These are my great great grandparents, Otto and Louisa on their wedding day, November 17, 1885:

And this is their son, my great grandpa Richard and my great grandma Gladys, on their wedding day, July 2, 1919:

They had my ever so handsome grandpa and below is him and my sweet grandma on their wedding day, April 14, 1946:

Last, but not least, are my gorgeous parents, in their engagement photo in 1968:

It's pretty neat to see my ancestry lined up in wedding photos. I'd say I come from a pretty fantastic line.

Families Are Forever

2011-01-31T23:35:00.006-05:00

My last surviving grandparent, William Richard Koch, is on the other side tonight. It was a long time coming. My grandpa had been waiting patiently, then impatiently, then patiently once more, to be reunited with my sweet grandma who has been gone over 6 years. From what my mother told me, his spirit peacefully left this earth around 7 pm, pacific standard time. The process was fairly quick and not painful, for which we are all grateful. I last spoke with my grandpa two weeks ago and though it was a short phone conversation, as I learned was grandpa's style, it was upbeat and positive and will stay with me forever. Grandpa was such an amazing and generous man. I'm grateful I managed to capture a handful of photos of him with me over the last several years.

2007

2008
2009

When I think of him being born in 1924, I am blown away by what changes he had witnessed in the world during his lifetime. He lived a long and full life. He continually stated to his loved ones how blessed he had been in his life, how grateful he was for his posterity, and how much he loved the Lord and believed in His gospel. Grandpa was such a wonderful example to me. I'm so grateful to know that he will forever be my grandpa, and I will see him again, some day.

2010 Isn't he so handsome?! I love you, grandpa!!!!!!

"Now, concerning the state of the soul between death and the resurrection—Behold, it has been made known unto me by an angel, that the spirits of all men, as soon as they are departed from this mortal body, yea, the spirits of all men, whether they be good or evil, are taken home to that God who gave them life." Alma 40:11

Winter Wonderland

2011-01-28T13:16:00.004-05:00

Wednesday night was a crazy blizzard of sorts, as you can see below

(out my window)

The result was the best snow day ever! I took my sweet time getting out of bed and showering. Then around 3 pm, a few friends (Rebecca D. and Armineh-roommate) and I headed to Chelsea Market, an indoor shopping/restaurant mall with an Anthropologie and fun places to eat. Below is what we saw along the way.
We each found a few bargains at Anthro, then had a bite to eat, and we topped it off with stumbling upon a sample sale of Free People clothing! Free People clothing is more expensive than Anthropologie but looks like it costs less. And again, we each scored some awesome, inexpensive items! We felt quite successful.

Next, we parted ways with Rebecca, and then Armineh and I went to see the movie "The King's Speech". It was so good! I tell you what, the rating system is so out of whack. One movie that's uplifting and wholesome, except for a few cuss words (in a scene with speech therapist session) and another movie with full frontal nudity, multiple explicit sex scenes, drug use and abuse (aka the kinds of movies I avoid like the plague) can have the same movie rating. Anyone else see something wrong with this picture? I do. For the most part, I go by ratings. If a movie comes out that looks like a good one to me and I see the rating is "R", I won't see it. But every now and then, a movie comes along that is phenomenal and wrongly rated, thanks to the messed up rating system. If there's a movie I think I really want to see, I visit the website IMDB.com and look under the 'parental guide' section to see what the deal is, and then make my judgment. It doesn't take long for me to figure out if it's a-go. Not tryin' to justify, here. Just stating fact.

Anyway, I'll get off my soap box. After the movie (and we even bought popcorn and candy, that's how good of a snow day it was), we had to top the whole day off with a visit to Magnolia's for treat. I'm surprised I was able to fall asleep last night with all that sugar running through my system! But I slept like a baby after such an excellent day. Best. Snow. Day. Ever.

It's Crunch Time

2011-01-24T14:31:00.000-05:00

It's starting to hit me--the fact that I only have about four months left in New York City. And I know that with my full schedule, that four months is going to fly by. I know I've complained a lot about life here, but I hope that I've also expressed some appreciation and affection for my time here. It will be a bittersweet departure, that's for sure. I've started to think of all the people I've met and made friends with and how I'll be sad to say goodbye to them. As is always the case for me, I feel like I'm just beginning to get to know a lot of awesome people just as I'm about to leave. Maybe that has to do with the fact that I have yet to stay put somewhere for longer than two and a half years.

Each place I've lived in my life I have met some phenomenal people. I have also experienced, in varying capacities, significant growth as a person. I never leave a city the same person as when I moved into it. This New York City experience and all it has held for me just might take the cake, in that regard.

Like Jay-Z raps out in his song "Empire State of Mind", "And since I made it here, I can make it anywhere."

I Wear My Heart On My Sleeve

2011-01-20T21:46:00.012-05:00

As most people are aware, I tend to be on the more emotional side when it comes to...well, life. And I internalize EVERYTHING and EVERYONE.

In my training to become a social worker, I'm learning that I need to find balance between my personal/emotional self and my professional self. It's not that I'm not allowed to feel emotion as a professional. I must be sensitive to emotion as a social worker; it comes with the territory. If I didn't FEEL then I wouldn't be doing what I'm doing. But before I can find that balance I need to first BELIEVE in my professional self. I feel very much like a "kid" right now. I often feel like I don't know what the hell I'm doing. All the theories and the methods I've learned are fine and good, but in the moment I often don't know how to respond to what's going on. It's almost like I'm playing "pretend", except I'm extremely aware that what I'm experiencing in my field work is NOT pretend. It's ridiculously real and heart-wrenchingly hard. Am I making any sense? I realize I'm being quite vague. I've got a lot of thoughts swirling through my head at the moment and am not sure how to formulate them into words.

I've had my fair share of doubts since I started this gig called grad school, that I don't know if I can do this kind of work and remain a functioning, contributing member of society. But I've also never seriously considered walking away from it all. I have had enough faith in myself, or have relied on the faith others have in me (namely, a loving God's) when I felt like I had none left, to keep going. If I said it once, I'll say it a billion more times. Life is hard. I know that now more than ever, and it's not from my own life experience. What I've been through is "chump change" compared to what I've witnessed.

Being an emotional person is a big part of who I am, and if I internalize, I internalize. Social work school and practice are teaching me how to harness the emotional, internalizing side of me into someone I believe in and am proud to be.

And Another

2011-01-19T22:30:00.005-05:00

"One cannot have adequate faith in a Christ whom he does not adequately know, “who is a stranger … far from the thoughts and intents of his heart.” (Mosiah 5:13.) Instead, by laying aside “every weight” of the world and the sins which so “easily beset us,” by looking unto Jesus and by feasting upon His words, we will be able to move forward with intellectual and spiritual vigor. Otherwise, as Paul said, we can become wearied and faint in our minds. (See Heb. 12:1–3; see also 2 Ne. 31:20.) When we understand what was revealed to Adam—“[my] plan of salvation unto all men” (Moses 6:62)—then these doctrines are keenly relevant for tomorrow’s trial, Tuesday’s temptation, or next month’s surge of self-pity. After all, chastening, the trial of our faith, and patience are part of the plan. (See Mosiah 23:21.)"

-Elder Neal A. Maxwell (Called and Prepared From the Foundation of the World, April, 1986)

I've begun attending an Institute of Religion class at my church building and we're studying The Pearl of Great Price. The above quote came from an article that one of the teachers (two guys from my previous ward team teach the class), sent to us in preparation for the class tonight. It was an amazing article and you can find the entire thing here

I need to read my scriptures.

The Power of Words

2011-01-18T23:40:00.003-05:00

One of several (if not many) of the bonuses of being the only non-married person among my siblings is that, at Christmas, my mom is always overgenerous and gets me a handful of wonderful gifts. It only seems fair, right? I have no spouse or children to buy my presents, so my mom steps in and takes care of me. :) I don't mind! Although I did tell her this past Christmas she is not allowed to buy me presents like she has been all these years. I'll let her buy me ONE. Or maybe two small ones. haha. Just kiddin'. I'm totally content to just be there on Christmas, But anyway, I digress.

My favorite gift she got me last month was The Neal A. Maxwell Quote Book. When I first saw that book, I wanted it so bad and had mentioned it to her late summer. It really wasn't a hint, I promise. We happened to be at the church bookstore together and I talked of how I would love it and planned on getting it soon. Little did I know, she made a note to herself for potential future Christmas present ideas. Genius! She's a genius. I never know what to get people come December, but she suggested that if you pay attention all year long, you'll know just what to get someone come the season of giving. I gotta remember that! Anyway, the apostle, Elder Maxwellhad a way with words that made you think twice or three times after hearing him speak or reading something he wrote. His words were always that profound. I remember when I was old enough to appreciate his talks at General Conference. Did I always understand what he was saying? No. But that was the beauty of his ways. I had to go back and listen again or read it again to get it, even half way. Here are a few of my most recent finds and favorites:

"One wonders, even in good people, if peevishness is not one of the last tendencies to be conquered. Littleness in big people is always disappointing. Perhaps such littleness is like litter on an otherwise lovely lawn.; we must not be judgmental, of course, but we cannot help noticing. Even so, we'd best look first to our own lawns". (Notwithstanding My Weakness, 51)

"Endurance is more than pacing up and down within the cell of our circumstances; it is not only acceptance of the things allotted to us, but to "act for ourselves" by magnifying what is allotted to us (Alma 29:3,6). Ensign, May 1990, 33)

"Let us have integrity and not write checks with our tongues which our conduct cannot cash." (Quote Book, Preface)

"Decisions made in the midst of fatigue are seldom the best decisions, and agreements reached between the exhausted may last only until some of the participants are revived." (The Smallest Part, 48)

"Our faith must ride out our moods, or our discipleship will be too much at the mercy of mood, men, and circumstance." (Wherefore, Ye Must Press Forward, 35)

That's all, for now. There's plenty more where that came from.

New Look!

2011-01-17T00:38:00.005-05:00

I thought I'd give this blog a little more color and appeal with a new template design. It was well overdue. So behold, the new look!

And one more thought before I go...

I saw this ad on the subway on my way to church.Another reminder of why New York's mentality bothers me. Only in New York. Blah.

A Near Snow Day and Thensome

2011-01-16T23:23:00.005-05:00

We had a pretty little snow "storm" last week with a lot of hype. Both my work and school were sending out emails saying there may be a potential closing of facilities due to the impending storm. I was surprised at how much they talk about snow storms out here, like it's something new and unknown to the area. I'm pretty sure the winters out here have been like this for quite some time now. Anyway, I went out after my class (no "snow day" there) and took some photos of the aftermath.

Central Park

Washington Square Park (NYU)

And then last weekend I went to the Guggenheim for my first time. The building was almost cooler than the paintings.
I totally snuck that last one. I was told afterward that no photos are allowed of even the building on the upper floors. I wasn't even taking a picture of artwork! What a dumb rule.

I was doing some window shopping the other day near Union Square and got this lovely photoDuring my window shopping, I came across these one-of-a-kind rain boots!I was reminded of home, naturally, and I would've bought some just for the sake of buying Las Vegas memorabilia found in New York City, but I decided I did not need them. Plus, they are not the greatest fashion statement, and I wasn't the only one who thought this (see evidence below)I should mention, this was in a Ross-like store, where stuff is discounted. Even the discounted leftover boots aren't selling. Sad.

Speaking of Vegas, though, I'm 99.9-percent sure I'll be heading back to there come June. We'll see if it feels right as I plan for my future.

1-11-11

2011-01-11T21:16:00.004-05:00

What a fun date it is today! This won't ever happen again, in the history of mankind.

A snow storm is supposed to hit tonight, and it's supposed to be a doozy! People out here are on the ball when it comes to the weather. They plan snow days ahead of time. My internship sent out an email saying not to come in till 10 am tomorrow, like that's gonna actually happen if a foot of snow falls tonight (no one will be going anywhere, except maybe to build a snowman). I also got an email from NYU, since my mini course is scheduled for tomorrow, pre-warning us about the snow storm nearly upon us. I tell you what, with all this hype, if I don't get a snow day tomorrow, as well as everyone else who is already mentally there, I'm gonna be VERY disappointed.

On a different note, there was an article in the NY Times last week that has hit the World Wide Web Mormon population by storm (kinda like the one we're about to get tonight). It was written by a Mormon, single woman in her mid 30s who's a virgin and tired of the Mormon culture and standards. She decided to publicly announce to the world of her conscious choice to get permanent birth control, enabling her to experience "a man's hands" on her before she dies (her words, not mine). She expressed her frustration with the dating scene and everything that comes with it in the Mormon single world, the emphasis the church places on families and how one can feel quite alone (note: if they let themselves) because of this. While I heard her and could empathize with her frustration and desire for companionship and intimacy, I just don't get it. I don't get why she felt she had to speak out about it in a NY Times article, in a city where we're already a minor part of the population and largely misunderstood. Right, I get it. There's a little thing called freedom of speech and also freedom to choose. Well, kudos to her taking advantage and making public her most personal part of her life. I just didn't get a good vibe from her words at all. It spurred me to think about my current Mormon, single, virgin-living self. I'm grateful I have a greater understanding of the bigger picture, unlike this girl. I once said to someone that it just takes will power and a greater purpose to keep it in your pants. Really, it's that simple. I shared this on facebook yesterday in response to the whole article debacle. The reading of this scripture wasn't intentional, actually. I was just actually reading my scriptures (for once) and ended up here:

9For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ^aways ^bhigher than your ways, and my ^cthoughts than your thoughts.

10For as the ^arain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and ^bbread to the eater:

11So shall my ^aword be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.

- Isaiah 55:9-11

I've been really upset about a lot of things lately, and I admit, I've aimed some of that anger at God. But I knew all along that was ridiculous. I just need to stop being angry and move forward with faith. I feel bad for the girl who gave up. But hey, if she's happier living a different lifestyle, then what can I say? I guess her standard for happiness is lower than mine.

Too Tired To Move

2011-01-10T20:59:00.003-05:00

I loved my two and a half weeks extended Christmas and New Years vacation, but it has made it SO DIFFICULT to get back into the routine of my life. I swear, I can't catch up! I feel really tired every day, all day long. I just can't shake vacation mode. I also just want to watch TV and movies all night long when I get home from work. NOT GOOD. I mean, there's nothing wrong with a little R&R, but I already had my R&R (and plenty of it) back home, and it's time to prepare myself for what's to come in the next few weeks. School will be upon me, once more, but for the LAST TIME, EVER! I just can't get enough of that statement. I am taking a couple of mini courses before the semester begins because that will leave me with only three classes during the actual semester. Making that happen comes with a tiny bit of sacrifice--one of the mini courses started last Friday (a bit soon after a long vacay), the second one takes place on two Saturdays (though they occur two weeks apart), and the third one takes place two days during my Spring Break week (I know, it sounds like "crazy talk", but I'm reserving vacation mode for AFTER graduation). So, my LAST TIME EVER having a school semester will not be as jam-packed with readings assignments and papers. I'm a genius for coming up with this plan. Here's hoping it turns out like I imagine it will!

Memory Lane of 2010 in Photos (Part 2)

2011-01-05T00:17:00.007-05:00

August

September October November December It was a pretty fantastic year. Onto the next one! Although, I fear it won't be as fun (last semester of school leads to life as a non-student, which leads to more responsibility, leading to less freedom and less fun. Sad story)

Memory Lane of 2010 in Photos (Part 1)

2011-01-04T23:26:00.010-05:00

I stole this idea from a friend. (Thanks, Naomi! http://hoodenvy.blogspot.com/2011/01/hasta-20-10.html)

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Oh Thank Heaven, It's Twenty Eleven

2011-01-04T17:21:00.000-05:00

That's the spirit! I just came up with my theme for the year (see title). I guess you could say, then, that my first resolution for the new year is a better attitude. I don't think I had a bad attitude last year, necessarily, but I figure there's always the need to improve one's general outlook.

This year, I will graduate from NYU with a masters in Social Work, in less than 5 months, to be exact! Wow. That's quite insane. I thought I was going to die the first year of school and/or quit, but I didn't do either (thank goodness).

I was grateful to have direction in life when I got accepted to grad school. I knew what I was going to be doing for the next two years of my life, and that was such a relief! Come the month of May, I have some idea of my next direction: getting a job. But what job and where is left to be determined. Again, I think I have some idea, but nothing is set in stone, yet. I'm not too worried, because things have generally worked out for me so far, and I trust I'll have some divine guidance to help me.

Stranded in Vegas

2010-12-29T15:27:00.006-05:00

It's past noon and I'm still in my pajamas...AGAIN. This Christmas vacation has been all about sleeping until I naturally wake up and staying in my pajamas all morning and thensome. Not too shabby. This is partially on purpose and partially because I'm without transportation, so what's the point of getting ready, right?? Right. I'm not complaining. I've been able to go through my boxes of stuff that I'm storing at my parents' house, reminiscing all the while. Journals, yearbooks, photo albums,my CD collection, etc. Good times.And now I'm stranded without transportation once more. Because of the crazy blizzard that happened out in NYC, this is the news I got when I checked my flight status:I had to call JetBlue to rebook and was on hold from 11:30 pm to 1:30 am. Luckily, I'm not in a rush to get back, so a flight back on Sunday will do just fine. I was planning on celebrating my last NYC New Year's Eve, but oh well. I had no set plans, though I was strongly considering Times Square since I probably won't be in New York for next year's. I'm happy to spend New Year's Eve here in Las Vegas, though. Come to think of it, I don't think I've been here for one since I moved away four years ago. Should be a good time.

On a different note, I've got Bieber fever. Totally jk. I really don't. But I couldn't resist when I saw this life-size cutout of him at the movie theater. Doesn't it look kinda real?! Ha.

So This is Christmas

2010-12-21T02:58:00.003-05:00

I called "dibs" on this Nativity set of my mom's, but apparently two of my other sisters want it, too.If I have to claim ownership by stealing, I just might. My mom said she almost threw it away! I was the one who asked her to put it out with her many other Nativity sets. It's the best one, in my opinion. Maybe each child will get a piece and each Christmas we'll bring it together again. Wait, no. That's a dangerous plan. I'll just take care of it. No one has to worry.

I made another gingerbread house at my family's party...a big one, this time.
Too bad I never actually eat the candy. The photo below is random, but notice the similarities?

I have two, yes, two, pregnant sisters. I am in the middle of them in age. Yes, it makes me feel a little bit like a slacker. But not envious, no. I'm okay. They're due about one month apart from each other. Kinda crazy, but we've seen this kind of thing in my family before. One year, we had three babies born all within a month or two of each other. It's been 5 or 6 years since a wee babe has graced our family's presence. It's about time. The weather has been rainy consistently since I got here. I swear, the East Coast weather follows me every. single. time. Last month, when I was here for Thanksgiving it was in the 40s. Seriously? Above, you can see a faint rainbow in the sky, with a classic Vegas palm tree in the scene. Last, but not least of this random post, is Sawyer. He's a blond babe. He's the only one I care to take pictures of lately. Love him!

It's a Holly, Jolly Christmas

2010-12-13T00:12:00.001-05:00

I went to a few Christmas parties this past weekend and even managed to throw a small one myself! A roommate is moving and we had a goodbye gingerbread house-making party! Except we used graham crackers. I made the frosting and we bought candy and wah-la!

My roof almost caved in, but still! It was fun.

The parties I went to were both on Saturday. The first was the ward party. It was ok. Then I went to the Todd's party (the fam I babysit for). The kids woke up sick, but I played with them anyway. I found myself playing with them while the adults were socializing. I preferred it that way.

Below is from Friday:

I love them so much!!!!

Baby, It's Cold Outside!

2010-12-09T11:48:00.002-05:00

That may be an understatement for Westerners, like myself.

26 degrees is COLD!!! And this New York City weather couldn't be more unpredictable. At least it's the weekend that gets warmer! I leave Wednesday night for my Christmas break and couldn't be more excited! My excitement is currently being dampened by three finals hanging over my head. I don't know how I'm going to get it all done, but I know it will somehow.

Forgive My Absence

2010-12-08T23:45:00.004-05:00

Yeah, I haven't had much extra time on my hands, as of late. I shouldn't even be posting this now. But, ya know, you can only work on a paper you're not sure about for so long. I know I've said this once, and I'll say it again...holy cow, this semester went by fast! This whole year! The whole year and a half!!!! Who am I kidding, time is not ever going to be the same again. I remember the days of being a Jr. High School student when I felt like I had all the time in the world to hang out with my friends (and i did), watch TV (and i did), and do absolutely nothing of importance every single weekend! What the?! Where the?! Man, growing up and becoming responsible is tough. See? here I am, talking like a 16-year old, instead of a soon-to-be 31-year old. For real. I'd like to go back to 1996, please. Thank you.

But instead, I'll just be proud of my accomplishments since then, and gaze upon things that are awesome, like this:I walked out of class on Tuesday night to the sounds of Christmas carolers. I followed their song and was not surprised where I found them gathered. The arch at Washington Square Park (center of NYU campus) is beautiful. I'm sure it has an official name, but I'm too tired to Google it right now. While it's beautiful to behold, I am THRILLED that I only have to see it one more time this year! Only one day of class to go to turn in my final papers. ONE! That's it! Five months from now, I'll be walking across a stage to receive my Master's degree in Social Work. Ha. I don't think I'll feel quite ready for that when it happens, but I'll work on that.

Grateful

2010-12-01T17:47:00.000-05:00

I failed to post on Thanksgiving because I was too busy enjoying my many blessings that come in the form of family and friends. As I've become a student of social work, I've never been more thankful of my upbringing and the many relationships in my life. I've been exposed to some less than ideal situations as of late, and as my heart nearly breaks for the people I'm working with, I am reminded constantly to count my many blessings. No life is perfect; no, not even my own (contrary to popular belief). But a lot of trouble and woe can be avoided with some guidance, greater purpose, and willpower.

As President Hinckley used to always say, if we were all a little bit kinder, a little bit more prayerful, a little bit more like Jesus Christ, we would be happier. It's simple, really.

Vegas, Baby!

2010-11-29T13:05:00.000-05:00

I'm waiting to board a plan bound for NYC. As usual, Vegas was good to me.

My second night here, I went out to get crazy with the ladies

We loitered in the casino and took a ton of ridiculous pictures of ourselves afterward. Those are to come, as they are on my digital camera.

At Thanksgiving, my bro-in-law who's in the Navy, but is now sporting camos instead of a sailor uniform, showed off his stuff to the little kids.

I wanted in on the action..

Don't I look tough?!! Or more like a nerd. I coaxed him into making one of my family members pass out using a sort
of choke hold move. Haha. It was crazy, but totally safe--he's a professional!

Also, during my stay I came upon some old skool Apple gems

My dad's first iPod! This thing is gigantic.

And my friend's old MacBook

Oh, how times have changed! If you ask me, I'd say Apple is a bunch of overachievers.

And I got to drive and saw mountains. Ah, wide open spaces!!

I didn't take many photos of people. I need to work on that. I spent time with my family and my besties. I saw my grandpa and had a nice visit with him. He gave a prayer before we left and it was so profound and sweet. I love him.

I'll be back for more in two weeks!! Hooray for home and holidays!

All Things New York

2010-11-17T23:23:00.007-05:00

Okay, maybe not ALL things, but here's some things I've been capturing lately that scream "NYC".

First,Fall colors from my bedroom window!

Second,Here, pizza gets delivered on bikes. For real.

Third,
Christmas Spectacular!!! Starring, the one and only What did they do before LCD screens and computers? Seriously??

The showed ended with a LIVE Nativity! There were real camels and sheep on stage! Also, kudos to you, Rockettes Christmas Spectacular, for not changing your show to be "P.C.", ("politically correct"). There was Merry Christmas and Christian goodness all over the place. LOVED it.

Natasha and I also loved ourselves in the awesome Ladies' Lounge, which I'm pretty sure used to be a smoking lounge back in the day.
This room makes me want to be a flapper girl who smokes long cigs.
Saw these ladies afterward. Really, it's not that cold, yet, guys. Really.

It Was Worth It

2010-11-16T00:03:00.010-05:00

I meant to post about this a lot sooner, but alas, time keeps slipping away from me. My awesome friends Abby and Travis FINALLY tied the knot about a week ago. Behold, Trabby! Or Abbis!I say "finally", because I can. I have been a witness of this roller coaster ride of love since the VERY START. Abby met Travis when she and I were living as roommates in Salt Lake City, UT. It was out first spring/summer there, in 2007. Well, pretty soon after the summer, they both ended up out in NYC. Funny how I followed about one year later. When I wasn't physically around to witness their romance, with the highs and lows that come with every relationship, I was virtually around via a little thing called email and gchat. Abby and I both had desk jobs that required mindless work, therefore, we were able to spend a good part of our days, for a good length of time, chatting about our woes and wants and likes and dislikes. I looked forward to going to work, because I knew I'd most likely have an email waiting for me from Abby (since NY is two hours ahead of Utah, she got into work before I did and often had stories to tell me--not always related to Travis, mind you). I think it's safe to say, and that she'd agree with me, that in those days of long distance friendship, our friendship grew profoundly. I never guessed that when my off and on/multi-state dwelling roommate (we lived together in Vegas, then Salt Lake City) and dear, dear friend moved across the country, we'd actually grow closer. I've been fighting technology a lot lately, not really enjoying the fact that it's taken away from the more traditional face-to-face time that I so enjoy with people, but I guess I'm forgetting what it did for this friendship. Maybe I need to remember it more often and stop trying to fight and isolate myself from it, but rather, make it work to my advantage.

But back the wedding! It was beautiful and so much fun. I'm so glad they decided to get married here in NYC. I already had to miss several dear friends' weddings this year. I'm so happy I didn't have to miss another! I failed to bring my camera, idiotically, so I stole these from my old roomie (thanks, Alina!;)I love it when a love story has a happy ending, with all the other stuff before it and in between. One main thought ran through my mind that day, and Abby, you know I love you when I say this...There's hope!:)

Let the Sun Shine In

2010-11-12T09:59:00.001-05:00

Have I mentioned my room with a view?

Well, it comes with lots of sunlight, too (naturally). And a grown-up bed!

See that shadow on the wall?! Love it. And I love that I can actually spread this long, lanky body of mine out and sleep comfortably. Even though I slept just fine on the twin loft bed in my last apartment (because I sleep like a log once I'm out), I feel I sleep even better when my body is not cramped into a small space.

Hello, Wendy!

2010-11-11T16:34:00.003-05:00

It's so good to see a familiar face once and awhile. I can't remember the last time I ate at Wendy's.
And I did some damage, as you can see. Gotta love that chocolate frosty! Three cheers for fast food (on occasion)! I went on a hospital visit at my internship today (got to see a newborn babe, again, and all I can say is to.die.for adorable!) and lunch was right across the street. I know I've mentioned this before, but I am fond of chain stores and restaurants. I told my supervisor that today and she looked at me like I am crazy. Ha. What can I say?? I find comfort in the familiar and I know what to expect and what I like at such places. I also like riding in a car. I rode in the back of a brand new Mazda something-or-other and I got excited at the thought of one day owning a car again. I'm sure I'll change my tune once that day actually comes and all my money goes into a thing that depreciates in value the longer I own it. Oh well. At least I'll get to sing to my heart's desire and come and go as I please when I have a car. There's pros and cons to both private and public transportation, indeed.

This I Will Miss

2010-11-10T19:44:00.002-05:00

Dinner, for just a mere $3.25:
at in a hole-in-the-wall pizza place. I was starving. Hunger, fed. Oh, and with a bunch of Italians in the corner:

Also, noticing a movie casting call for one of my favorite books posted in said hole-in-the-wall-pizza place:

There's no place like New York City!

I Cannot Tell a Lie

2010-11-07T22:40:00.002-05:00

I can't really say much of anything right now. This cold sickness has turned into me having no voice! I woke up Saturday morning to barely being audible--a perfect excuse to stay in bed all day, quite literally. I did not change from my pajamas, nor did I shower or do anything but lie in bed and sleep and take medicine and eat delicious soup my roommates provided. But to no avail, I remain in the same state today as I was yesterday; barely a voice, wanting to cough but not being able to, not feeling so great, and really annoyed at being sick, still.

Despite my condition, I attended church and tonight I went to a group dinner with some people from church. It was interesting trying to be a part of conversation throughout the day. I found myself wanting to say a whole lot more than I actually could, and being forced to keep quiet was frustrating, but telling. Maybe we sometimes like the sound of our own voices too much. Or maybe we're not afraid to give an opinion that we shouldn't. I did more talking, still, than I probably should have tonight, considering my lack of functioning vocal chords, but I thought, maybe I should sometimes do more listening and observing.
I think I found my costume idea for next Halloween.

How to Get Sick, But Also Show Gratitude (not for the sickness, though)

2010-11-03T23:05:00.004-04:00

This just does not happen. I'm coming down with a cold, AGAIN! I was sick just a month ago, and it lasted for two weeks! I RARELY get sick, at least, I used to rarely get sick. But now I'm on a roll. It's really no mystery, though, as to why this is happening. There is a rhyme and reason to it, indeed. The recipe for disaster is as follows:

1. Not enough sleep

(Though I average nearly 7 hours a night, it is not enough for this aging body.)

2. Not enough food

(Going grocery shopping was an okay activity for me when I had a car. Now? It's just a nuisance. Also, I don't want to cook and I don't want to eat frozen pizzas or other frozen things for dinner. And I don't want to spend the money to eat out, plus, doing it alone all the time is no fun. DON'T WORRY (mom), I DO EAT. I just don't prepare well enough in advance. I find it more of a hassle than an enjoyment. I think I may have come up with a new eating disorder.)

3. Stress

(While the second year of grad school seems less stressful, it's still there. I live for the day when I do not have articles I'm required to read that I actually never get to because I don't have time. Or papers to write for a grade. May 18th cannot get here too quickly. But then comes stress of a job. I know, it never ends.)

These three factors are what always lead to me getting sick. Now, you think since I know this I would be more mindful. Hmm. Ya think? Maybe since I've put it in writing....no, that hasn't worked before. I was supposed to start posting something positive that I like about NYC every Sunday. Well, I obviously haven't been doing that, however, I have been keeping a "Gratitude Journal". It's actually something my health counselor suggested, which was awfully "Mormon" of her to do. I wanted to ask her if she had watched General Conference and I just didn't know it.

Here's a sneak-peek at a few days. I've been writing three things each day:

October 18 (in no particular order)
1. A room with a view
2. Lifelong friends
3. Physical ability

October 24
1. Self-realizations in church
2. People trusting me
3. Time alone

October 25
1. Holding a newborn baby!
2. Kind people
3. Adorable dogs

October 31
1. Church friends
2. Close friends
3. BFFs

I'm one step closer to maybe, actually writing regularly in a journal again some day. I used to be really good at that.

"Do Remember the Time...."

2010-10-31T15:11:00.001-04:00

...when I met Michael Jackson?!!

'Cause it was AMAZING!!! By far, my favorite costume of the night. Duh.

Of course, my own costume would've been my fav, if I had only worn one. I wore red pants, though! I was a wanna be Where's Waldo/pirate. I know, lame.

Time is Tickin'

2010-10-28T11:15:00.007-04:00

I swear, lately every day when I've looked at the clock it's often either 11:11 or 1:11, sometimes 3:33. Maybe other times, too. What does it all mean?!! I heard once that it's supposedly lucky and you make wish. If that's the case, then I've been losing out on a lot of wishes because I haven't been wishing at these times.

Anyway, I'm one midterm down, three more to go! And soon I'll be heading to the Wild West for Thanksgiving with my sweet family. I cannot believe October is nearly over. I've decided against going all out for Halloween this year. I'm not feeling much in the mood anymore and while there will be a handful of Halloween costume parties to attend, I've chosen a different route.

I bought tickets to see Devo in concert this Saturday! Yes, Devo! "Whip it! Whip it good! Into shape! Shape it up!" However, just before I posted this, I got a phone call letting me know they had to cancel due to a personal injury. That is terrible news. I am pretty bummed about it. However, the two other bands are still playing who I totally wanted to see, anyway.
Neon Trees is a band from Utah, of all places (Provo, even)! And I know the bassist Brandon Campbell (right), through a few cousins and friends of mine.

And The Drums I have yet to fully explore, but a friend of mine recommended them awhile back and I dig what I've heard so far. And better yet, the concert is now FREE! I'm getting reimbursed for my ticket purchase, but getting to go anyway. And the one and only Abby and Travis are joining me!

No, these are not our Halloween costumes. This was just a zombie dance party we went to, oh, I don't know....three years ago!!!! These two are getting hitched NEXT FRIDAY! I feel loved that they're spending their last weekend as "non-marrieds" with me. Their wedding is going to awesome and fun. I'm excited to go and am so happy for them! Hooray, for love and marriage!

It's All About the Hair

2010-10-27T18:50:00.008-04:00

Today was the first time in years and years since I went to a salon to have my hair cut and styled by someone other than one of my three sisters who are hairstylists or by friends who are hairstylists. In fact, I'm not even sure I have EVER gone to a salon to have my hair cut by a stranger. Wow. That's just plain crazy talk, but it's true crazy talk. And what better place for me to go for my first time than Arrojo Studio! The owner of this studio is the one and only Nick Arrojowho is famous from his appearance as the hair stylist on the makeover show What Not To Wear.I love that show and I've loved watching Nick cut people's hair and make them look better. I googled his name one day to see if he had a salon here, because, hey, it's New York! If he has a salon anywhere, it would be here, right? Sure enough, I was right. The website listed stylists and their prices, and there he was, right at the top of the list (of course)! My jaw dropped at the sight of the cost for a haircut by the man himself: $500. FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS!!!!!!! For a HAIRCUT!!!! I about died. I mean, I was expecting it to be a pretty penny, but not that pretty!! So, there went my idea to actually have him cut my hair, even though I pretended to consider it. There is just no way I could go through with that and live with myself. Weeks and months went by and a friend of mine posted on her facebook status about going to the Arrojo studio to get her hair cut! I couldn't believe it! So, I asked her about it. She did not have Nick cut her hair either, but she found out that for first timers, if you bring a friend, you get half off the cost. I was sold, right then and there. My only problem would be to find someone willing to go with me. I thought this was a hopeless cause, because who would just happen to need a hair cut and just happen to be willing to go to this particular salon to get it done. Well, I'll tell you who!! One of my new roommates, that's who. I was so happy when she said she'd join me in this adventure. So, I called, booked an appointment, and today we went. We saw the same hairstylist and her name is Carmel. She's Irish and so cool and nice. She kept complimenting me on my hair and how great she thinks it is. It was great! Ha. Anyway, of course, I didn't have her do anything drastic, but I was in great need of a hair cut. My hair was almost all one length and just boxy. The end result...!It doesn't look much different than usual, I know, but that's what happens when you have naturally curly hair. And it only cost $50! I did buy some much needed styling product, which brought my bill up, but it will go to a good cause...making my hair look amazing! Some day, some man is gonna fall in love with me and my curls. We gotta look gooood. ;)

p.s. The whole time I was at the hair studio, I was hoping to see Nick Arrojo walk by so I could see him in person! There was no sign of him, though I knew he was there, because the girl who washed my hair told me he was. And then, at the very last minute, I was sitting getting a free quick makeover and I saw him walk by! It was brief, but I saw him! I wanted to ask to meet him, but I didn't want to be one of THOSE people. A glance was enough. ha.

Procrastination, Because I Don't Know

2010-10-23T17:53:00.001-04:00

I'm in my fancy new basement laundry room in my building, washing the load of laundry I potentially ruined with lipstick (Oxi-Clean Max Stain Remover Gel, this is your true test). I saw this sign on the wall:

Yes, yes, I am stressed with such thing. My first midterm is to describe back to my professor everything he has described to the class. I despise regurgitation assignments. Fortunately, two of my other midterms are very "hands-on" and, therefore, much more to my liking and interest. As for this first one, here's to waiting last minute and cranking out the thing under pressure. It's how I roll.

Tis' the Season!

2010-10-21T21:17:00.001-04:00

My favorite part of Halloween is this!

I love carving pumpkins, and I didn't even use a stencil!!

I'm Learning

2010-10-20T23:01:00.006-04:00

Today I witnessed my first "match meeting" at my internship, where the woman considering adoption meets the person(s) she is considering to become the parent(s) of her child. Yeah. I think that's the most vulnerable state of all parties involved--nothing is official, but it's moving in that direction as if it is. Well, kind of. This is the step in the process that's just one or two steps before signing papers and making the adoption complete. It's very thought-provoking to watch this whole process and see how it works "behind the scenes". My mind is constantly going, trying to observe and understand what is going on beneath the surface and how everyone is doing. I am constantly putting myself in the shoes of the other person (on both sides), and how I would feel if I were them. The problem with that is, they are NOT me. I think and react and process things totally different than how someone else may think, react, and process things. While it's important to be empathetic, I'm learning that I can't always be so, at least, not as much as I want to be. I can desire to understand and I do try and see things from their perspective, and that's a main part being a social worker. I won't always be able to relate, but lately I've noticed how I always try to by self-disclosing something that is totally unrelated or, more importantly, unnecessary, to the situation/problem at hand. Does it help the goal? If not, then don't share it. My supervisor pointed that out to me recently. I'm realizing that it's my way of trying to put myself on their level, to not be an authoritative figure, to try and make them feel comfortable, that they can trust me. But again, my supervisor is teaching me that I don't really need to do that to accomplish that comfort or trust with the clients. She said my "warmness" is conveyed without having to disclose things about myself. That statement really made me feel good about myself and more confident in my ability to do this work. It's close to the original thought I had when I decided to become a social worker, that people often find me easy to talk to and feel comfortable quickly around me.

I know I'm not always the most warm and fuzzy person. In fact, I feel like I've been quite the opposite lately. But I'm grateful to be learning a lot about myself this year and feel like I'm getting closer to understanding my role in this field. There is hope, yet. My new view tells me so.

Busy, Busy!!

2010-10-18T08:27:00.001-04:00

Wow, what a whirlwind of a week! I had back to back visitors and MOVED at the end of it all--right about the time my midterms are happening. Ha. Good thing no assignments are due this week. That could've been bad news.

Meleah and her mom and two nieces came to the big city for a few days. They were a lively bunch! Ha.

Maybe they were just overwhelmed by it all, but her nieces were the most mellow teenage girls. We saw Jimmy Eat World the first night, and it was the very first concert for both of them.

I realized that I'm a very out-of-date Jimmy Eat World fan (aka: I'm old). And after we did Shake Shack, of course. They did a lot without me the first full day, but I got to take them to the rowboats!

And then I sent them off to the city of sin and moved into my room with a view!

I was so exhausted last night from it all, I washed AND dried my clothes in lipstick. I RARELY wear lipstick, let alone, keep it in my pocket! Ridiculous. I was too tired to even care, but it sucks real bad. Let's hope I find a "how to get lipstick stains out of clothing after they've been dried" tip on the Internet.

Where Does the Time Go?

2010-10-13T08:50:00.003-04:00

Mid-October?! What the...? How did that happen? I'm approaching midterms in school and am wondering what I've learned. Ha. Just kidding. Of course, I've learned new things. This second year, so far, has been much better than the first year. It's just way more relaxed and interesting. Last year was like survival of the fittest! For real. At one or two or three points, I thought I wasn't going to make it...but, I did! Go, me! Anyway, before I know it, I'll be walking up to get my degree at graduation, and then it's back to the REAL world! (ya know, the kind of world where you make money and don't have to write papers). And I'm lookin' forward to it.

This week is the week of visitors for me. Naomi is has been here the past few days (below we're on a boat in Central Park!)
and Meleah and some of her family comes tomorrow. It's always great when friend's come to town. It forces me to go out and do fun stuff, though it's not always good for my wallet. I don't get crazy or anything, but it's just more than I usually spend, of course. It doesn't happen often, so it's worth it. I've only got so much time here left in NYC. May as well enjoy it, especially when friends are visiting.

We went to this flea market where I scored some J. Crew black leather boots for $50! And I took these photos of awesome old stuff

Naomi and I walked passed this adorable old Chinese man selling birds he made out of ribbon. No one seemed to be stopping to look at his birds, so I couldn't resist. Meet Jorge!
I can't get over how awesome this photo is! Thanks, Naomi!:)

And last night, I was a lot hungrier than I realized and I devoured this delicious and huge B.L.T

Yeah, that gluten and dairy free diet (oh yeah, and meat) has gone out the window this last week. A girl can only resist for so long! And none of those things did I claim I'd give up forever. I still don't eat a ton of bread or cheese/milk or meat, but I think it does affect me somewhat when I do.

Life is Hard--Truth Makes it Livable

2010-10-03T21:50:00.005-04:00

Since I've been in New York City and in Social Work school, my eyes have been opened to a lot of HARD things. In the city alone, every single day, at least once (usually more than), I see the lost, the lonely, the homeless, the disabled, the poor. I've begun to see people and wonder about their lives--what brought them to where they are now. What was their childhood like? Do they have any loved ones in their lives? To those who ask for money, I would give a dollar and more to every person who expresses need if there weren't handfuls of them every day, and if I, myself, wasn't living on borrowed money. LOTS of borrowed money. I've thought, well, at least I've been able to apply and get approved for thousands of dollars in student loans, right? But all money I will, in fact, pay back one day. Yikes. Lets not go there--ever.

But back to my thoughts. I attribute a major part of this curiosity of people and their lives to my schooling and career path I'm on and the things I've learned in it, so far. I'm learning not to just see the surface, but to know there's much more to someone than what meets the eye. I'm three weeks, almost four, in to my internship and already I've witnessed some very HARD things. To be realistic, a lot of people's troubles stem from things that can be prevented, by their choices. I won't list them all, but generations are affected by their predecessors. Abuse (physical, sexual, verbal, substance), for one, often run in families for generations and do profoundly damaging things to people and all others connected to those people. Human life is often affected by it from the very beginning. I've learned that alcohol, more than any other drug, is the most harmful to a fetus inside a woman's womb. Women and men are often careless with their responsibilities and end up creating a life that they aren't prepared to take care of. Or there's disease that spreads because people are sharing their body with any- and everyone. There is a greater design and purpose to life than taking advantage of it or by abusing it.

I've never been more sure than I am right now in my life that the principles and doctrines I believe as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints are true and correct. It makes so much sense to me why I have been taught to not put harmful substances in my body, and why I shouldn't spend much time in places where people do such things. It makes so much sense to me I should wait till I am in a committed relationship of marriage to be fully and completely intimate with someone, because, yes, it's that sacred and, yes, one of the main purposes or outcomes of sex happens to be, oh, I don't know, creating new life! I'm just convinced day in and day out that life would be a lot more livable if people treated their bodies, themselves, and each other with more respect and more virtue. It makes so much sense to me to live life in the way that I do, what I believe to be the way God intended. I'm not claiming I live this perfect life. Not at all. Would it be a whole lot easier to do whatever I wanted?? Uh, yeah. But do I feel like I'm missing out on something because I refrain? Uh, no.

No One Likes a Frowny Face

2010-09-27T23:21:00.006-04:00

Ok. I admit it. I've been a Negative Nancy WAY more than I've been a Positive Penelope since I've moved to New York. I feel it every day I step outside my door and walk down the busy, noisy, sometimes dirty streets. I need to "change my ways, while I'm young" as Brandon Flowers sings so lovingly in The Killers song, "Smile Like You Mean It". That song is playing in my headphones as I type this. I totally didn't plan that, but how awesome. This post is all about smiling like I mean it in New York City. I've decided it's time I focus on the things that I like here. So, what this means is that I am going to post once a week something positive. Ha. Now Brandon just sang "heaven ain't close in a place like this". So true. Crap, that was negative. I'm not starting my weekly list of positive things until this coming Sunday. Sunday is the Sabbath, after all. What better day to focus on positive thoughts!

In the meantime, here's some positive photos of my adventure driving outside the city last week (Don't worry, it took all of TWO seconds to take these photos, and I did NOT take my eyes off the road, promise. My method is aim and shoot and hope you get something good)

I LOVE bridges, especially driving over them.
The leaves are changing! I LOVE Fall!!!!!
Suburbia! I "LOVE" Walmart!
I also LOVE puppies!!
He wanted to come home with me.

I'm Kinda Busy

2010-09-23T23:23:00.008-04:00

I don't know what happened. School started, then my internship, and BAM! I forgot what summer was all about. I'm already a week behind in school reading assignments. Why do professors think and expect I'm going to read anything on the syllabus prior to the first day of class?! So, I show up to class, think that I am on top of my readings for the week, and then I go the next week and realize I'm a week behind. Aggggggh! It bugs. However, I must say, the reading material in my classes is much more interesting to me than last year's. So far, some of what I've read has been about the brain and it's crazy terminology, schizophrenia, and the various views on death and dying. Also, my internship is going to be amazing. I went on my first visit alone to visit a client TODAY, second week in! I even got to drive a car out of the city to do so, too. It was a beautiful thing. I got to sing to the radio and everything! But these days I'm always tired, my back hurts, I am in major need of a massage, I miss eating cheese and bread (trial run for potential intolerance), I'm tried of not getting cell phone service in my apartment, you see, see, and I don't even like Lady Gaga, but "I'm Kinda Bu-sy!"

This One's for My Mama

2010-09-20T00:40:00.006-04:00

I was about to go to bed, and yes, it is WAY past my bedtime (as usual). But! I know my mom (hi, Mom!) checks this thing regularly, and I didn't want to disappoint (even though she'd rather me be in bed).

This weekend was pretty laid back. Friday I worked all day babysitting and doing my respite care thing. I got to play with Play-Doh for the first time in, I don't know, AGES, and I got pretty into it.
We were working hard on a pepperoni pizza. I'd say it looks almost edible!

But above is what it looked like after Brandon added his final touches. He's about to cut into it! Yum!And this was us a few weeks ago at the end of our last full day together. We're best buds! I love him. Oh, and his baby sis--also TO DIE FOR. See for yourself:
Did I already post this picture, previously? I wouldn't doubt it. I love her, too! I want the Todd family to adopt me as their Aunt Liz.

Stand A Little Taller, Indeed

2010-09-13T23:47:00.001-04:00

I haven't opened the book of the same title by Gordon B. Hinckley that often over the last six months, but when I do, it's spot on:

Prepare For A Career

"I don't care what you plan to do as your life's vocation, but prepare yourselves. Get the best education you can. Qualify yourselves the best way you know how. It's part of a mandate from the Lord that you train yourselves."

And the scripture of the day:
"Apply thine heart unto instruction, and thine ears to the words of knowledge." Proverbs 23:12

It's good to know I'm doing something right!

On a totally unrelated note, I went to the Brooklyn Art Museum last weekend to see Andy Warhol's art of his last decade. See what I saw:

Apparently, he was a devout Catholic but kept it hush-hush until this time of his life.

To Trench is To Be Divine

2010-09-09T23:22:00.007-04:00

Yeah, I just made that up. I took advantage of my "no school/no internship yet" day and stayed in my robe (yes, robe) until 1pm today. But don't worry. I made up for it by doing my work-out video. I ventured outdoors once and once only to return a few items I bought at H&M. I was so tempted to buy several things, namely, two AMAZING trench coats, perfect for the Fall season that's rapidly approaching! I was tempted, I pondered, I tried on and looked in the mirror multiple times!...and then I put the coats back on the rack and walked away. This is pretty incredible of me, especially since this lady saw me with one of them on and told me how perfect it fit me and how good it looked on me. Thanks for nothing, lady! But actually, I love that lady. And I'm afraid that, for $59.95, I'll be returning a.s.a.p to that lovely H&M store to purchase [at least] one of the two wonderful and totally affordable (I just remembered, I get paid tomorrow!) trench coats!
Besides, I have not.one.single.trench.coat.in.my.wardrobe! It's justified.(That's not the one I'm talking about, but it's adorable, too! Ugh! H-n-M, you kill me)

Oh, and blazers. I'm gonna need one or two of these, since my internship will probably require me to dress up a bit. Again, justified.

(But the actual one is a lot nicer looking. Yes, for me, this is "dressing up")

A Little Vegas and SLC

2010-09-08T19:26:00.001-04:00

I can't believe I didn't take more photos while I was home last week. But this is what I managed:

Me and Sawyer! He knows my name!:)

Me and mama at brunch

That grass felt like velvet!

Holy Blue

Yes, I'm a tree hugger. Ha. Ha.

Friend's art of friend!

Live friend!

Family history-the house my parents lived in when my brother was born

Mountains

And last, but not least,

Grandpa!

My grandpa is doing better than first thought. It was so good to hear his stories and wisdom told. He's a wonderful man!

It was a great week spent at home with family and friends. I want to do it again real soon.

Back to the Books!

2010-09-08T00:31:00.003-04:00

Today (Sept. 7th) was the first day of the second-to-last semester of my life. How's that for dramatic?! And I should be in bed right now. Go figure.

This semester I have all four classes on one day, so it's a long one, but I think I'm going to like my schedule. I go to school once a week! It's pretty great. I just need to make sure I stay on top of all my reading for homework and such. I think I'm going to like all my professors pretty well, and I know at least two people in each class from last year, so that's nice. I tried a new thing this semester and rented my books from the NYU Bookstore, rather than buy them. Some may think, "why rent when you can own?!" and I say, "I saved over $200 doing it that way and most of those books I will NEVER USE AGAIN", so I don't mind at all that I have to send them back when I'm done. You may think as a grad student I'd want to keep all of my books, like they may be useful one day. But don't fret, I'm keeping the ones I think I'll need/use in my future social work practice. I'm not that desperate for cash. Just a little.

On Mondays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays I will be working at my internship, which I'm really excited about. I'll be working at an adoption agency that will go unnamed here, for confidentiality purposes. I think I'm really going to like it and do well there. I start there next week. The powers that be at NYU give us a week to sink into our school work before they plunge us into the depths of social work practice in action. But I'm ready! I can take it.

Home Sweet Home

2010-09-02T18:14:00.001-04:00

Mama's got it all wrong:

I'm not going "home" this Sunday. And apparently Sunday has already passed. Ha. I love you, mom.